Im so tired…im so sad it feels like everyday i wake up everyone is watching me and waiting for me to get the courage to kms. My body hurts from the pain. How can my brain want me to die and in turn stop me from doing it. I dont want anything other than death. Ive got the noose around my neck rn. I feel so numb. I dont know what to feel.
Whenever i cried myself to sleep i used to hope that when i woke up it would turn out to be a bad dream and that i would still be 5 years old and nothing bad had happened yet.
I have been given a good life. Good parents good schools good everything. I still managed to destroy all that with my own hands.
I hope theres nothing after death. I hope the world just stops.
I have nothing to say to anyone.
Whenever i cried myself to sleep i used to hope that when i woke up it would turn out to be a bad dream and that i would still be 5 years old and nothing bad had happened yet.
I have been given a good life. Good parents good schools good everything. I still managed to destroy all that with my own hands.
I hope theres nothing after death. I hope the world just stops.
I have nothing to say to anyone.
