Venting i dont feel sick enough to recover

[soaringskies]

since april and may I've been in a depression. i havent been doing too good, my friend wants me to go into recovery and I kind of have to because I still live with my parents and they started noticing the cuts on my arm, i have to let them fade first. but i just feel like a poser, I just don't feel like I've been "sick" long enough to get the privilege of recovering if that makes sense?? has anyone felt the same

 

[Vacuous]

You should aspire to unlearn this tendency whereby one's mental health can be described in terms of "sickness", which carries an implication of judgement but also erroneously collapses depressive stories under a singular standard of normalcy. Mental health experiences are highly personal, variable, and less concrete than physical ailments like, say, cancer are but crucial to address all the same. Because of this, It's easy to narrativize our own mental health experiences as something that struggles to align with others', especially those which are more extreme. But if you were suddenly diagnosed with cancer, there'd likely be no debate in your mind over whether you'd be "deserving" of treatment.

You've been dealing with depression, and it has led to self-harm; those are two concrete data points. It doesn't matter in the slightest if the timeline doesn't align with what you may deem to be normal. All that matters is that you're carrying burdens that require intervention.

 

[thelostautistic]

I used to have these exact same thoughts in my teens. I never felt sick enough. Even now at age 24 those thoughts still occasionally come up. The truth is that there is no "sick enough" that part of you will never be satisfied so don't bother chasing it. Trust me it's not worth it. You don't need to prove anything to yourself or anyone else. You are deserving of recovery now and you are valid

 

[KnightOfSwords]

Been there. Just a phase, slightly disturbed and grieving, nothing much. Untill one day you miss some point of no return and begin spiraling quickly and become actually suicidal, with a ton of work to do if you'd wanted to feel even a little better.
So, don't wait for when you fall into the dark pit, the best time is now