Story I DID IT IM FREE

[wasteandvoid]

I escaped my dads voice in my head, I realized where it was coming from and destroyed that and now i dont identify with it anymore and I just see it as another thing that isnt me that eventually ill stop using and thinking in. I think im definitley borderline but at least I have some kind of self and I can deal with that, and im not gonna be bullied by this in my mind anymore. I can finally go on and live my life and get my emotions back that was fucked up before. Its a really fucking complicated process but I used sam vaknins videos to help me, yeah I know hes controversial but it helped me. Im able to move on now and fix more stuff im not going to give up I still have a lot to heal

 

[kinderbueno]

Well done that's really good progress!

 

[Dot]

 

[wasteandvoid]

Actually i completley fucked it up i dont understand anything anymore sorry i think im fucking deslusional i cant really make sense of anything anymore

 

[Sulyya]

Keep trying your best

 

[BojackHorseman]

Actually i completley fucked it up i dont understand anything anymore sorry i think im fucking deslusional i cant really make sense of anything anymore

I know its easier said than done, but please dont be so hard on yourself. Your trying, that counts for something. And you did feel better for a little bit, right? Well now you just have to try again, and next time that good feeling might last a little longer. Its a process, and its ok to have to repeat some steps along the way.

I think I understand the voice youre talking about. I used to always hear my fathers and my ex's voice in my head, repeating all the cruel and awful things they used to say. I wont lie, its taken almost an entire decade, but I have finally forgotten their voices. I know its frustrating to hear, it used to piss me off too, but time does help.

 

[executioner1983]

That's wonderful!!!! The best I've ever felt is when I finally made peace with the fact that my parents will never understand me and that's okay.

 

[whywere]

FANTASTIC!

You deserve the best and I am so super happy for you, congrats!

Lots of well wishes and have a great rest of this week.

Walter

 

[Mirrory Me]

I have some triggering "voices" too sometimes, they get more annoying the more stressed or uncomfortable I am (wish I could punch them sometimes tbh)- so when that happens, you should try to calm down, focus on something else, and not engage with them.

 

[wasteandvoid]

i want to make an update i didnt escape it back then i just got more lost but now i have escaped it sort of

i am still working on it its a lot to describe
thank you for your replies everyone though

I know its easier said than done, but please dont be so hard on yourself. Your trying, that counts for something. And you did feel better for a little bit, right? Well now you just have to try again, and next time that good feeling might last a little longer. Its a process, and its ok to have to repeat some steps along the way.

I think I understand the voice youre talking about. I used to always hear my fathers and my ex's voice in my head, repeating all the cruel and awful things they used to say. I wont lie, its taken almost an entire decade, but I have finally forgotten their voices. I know its frustrating to hear, it used to piss me off too, but time does help.

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thank you so much that means a lot