I crave suicide (it arouses me)

[miker]

I get aroused thinking about my suicide which makes me feel ashamed. What is the psychology behind that!? Doesn't make sense to me.

 

[IndictEvolution]

Hmm, a friend and I once both agreed that our version of sex would be dying together, since we were both antisex (repulsed). Although I will say for me it's not arousing, just the idea of a very intimate thing to do together. So I don't know the psychology behind what you're feeling about it. Interesting though.