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rottenhopes

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How much more pain can this soul take?

It aches to breathe. It aches to open my eyes. It aches to be conscious, it aches to sleep. It aches to exist.

How many more tears can these eyes shed for the salt to crust around them?

Just last night I woke up crying because in this nightmare I was raped by 2 men and I kept running through dark narrow streets in which adults just observed me as if maybe they had just felt the wind passing by, but only the children reacted, I wasn't invisible to them but they didn't understand what was I escaping from, the monsters I was escaping from.

I miss my dad.
I miss my kitty cat.

I'm sorry I have to go my beloved brother, I know you are the only one that ever adored me and understood me because you lived that hell, too.. I'm sorry I can't keep going.. I love you forever hermanito, and I'm so sorry to break your heart like this.


This world is too cruel of a place for such a soft, shattered heart. I just can't keep picking up the pieces, my hands are bleeding.


I love you.
Goodbye.
 
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