I can't learn from my mistakes

[stinky_joe]

For the 2nd time in my life, I felt I had a very special connection with someone. I thought she was just like me, we had been through similar things in the past and we looked at our lives with a similar perspective.

We got closer, we started dating. Everything was perfect. But as soon as I felt safer and warmer, I started acting like a child. Not in a bad way, just a childish sense or love. But it was what pushed her away. I can act like a grown man when I know i need to, but the child is also a part of me. But whenever someone sees the child, they lose interest. The first time also ended because of this.

She told me she was never going to value me the way I was expecting her to. I was willing to do so much for her just because I had felt a connection I had never felt before but to her I was no different than any other person. I guess all the time we spent together, all of our hugs and kisses were meaningless to her. Now I'm once again left here wondering will my fate ever change... or at least will I ever leave all the pain and misery here and go far far away, away from this life? I'm stuck in an empty place and I don't know the way out...

 

[violetforever]

what is the mistake here? feeling comfortable enough to show every part of yourself to somebody? most people don't even dare to do that which sounds worse to me but i know it all hurts the same. sorry you're going through this

 

[orpheus_]

It doesn't sound like a mistake for your part, sometimes relationships just don't work out for various reasons... Really sorry that happened to you, though, it must feel shit. Still it's not your fault, you don't need to act in front of someone you love, and you shouldn't have to.