I am throwing my SN away

[Yakamoz]

I am posting it here not to upset SD section fellas. I've chosen to keep on living and will throw this.

Censored the part where the manufacterer was visible as per forum rules. Hoping everyone will get better on here. Be it suicidal or not.

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[Grav]

Good luck to your future.

 

[R_N]

Take care and good luck. Hopefully you find some peace in this life. Enough to keep you going until it ends.

 

[Yakamoz]

Take care and good luck. Hopefully you find some peace in this life. Enough to keep you going until it ends.

Thank you

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I am posting it here not to upset SD section fellas. I've chosen to keep on living and will throw this.

Censored the part where the manufacterer was visible as per forum rules. Hoping everyone will get better on here. Be it suicidal or not.

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That's awesome, I just hope you don't come to regret it later but I know you won't.

 

[Yakamoz]

That's awesome, I just hope you don't come to regret it later but I know you won't.

SN is readily available in the country I reside...that was never the tricky part, but my mental state...thanks!

 

[Deleted member 65988]

SN is readily available in the country I reside...that was never the tricky part, but my mental state...thanks!

Same here, SN flows freely where I'm from. I truly wish you the best going forward.

 

[Yakamoz]

Same here, SN flows freely where I'm from. I truly wish you the best going forward.

Thanks and same to you

 

[justcallmeJ]

In always happy seeing people here recover. I wish you the best and im proud of you <3

 

[Blackpepperpancake]

That's really impressive! I hope you get better day by day, it's ok if there are days when you don't feel like you have improved, but as long as you remember how far you have come and remember that people in this site will be cheering on you. Massive kudos

 

[lucyna]

i'm happy for you!! i wish you the best on your future paths

 

[Cloud Busting]

The recovery subforum will always welcome you no matter what.

Have you checked out the recovery peer support megathread? I've found it instrumental in my recovery personally.

 

[EternalShore]

Good luck! I wish you the best in your life! ^_^

 

[sadwriter]

That's awesome to hear! Good luck in your recovery. I hope you continue to feel this way.

Have you checked out the recovery peer support megathread? I've found it instrumental in my recovery personally.

I second this! The support group megathread is great.

 

[dizzdesi]

I'm so proud of you! That isn't easy to do. I hope you're giving yourself the credit you deserve for doing something so brave <3

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

Good luck with your future! I hope you will find happiness and do what you want to do. :)

 

[Yakamoz]

Never thought I would receive this many heartwarming messages, guys. Thank you.

Clowns who label this site of being pro death cult should read this thread and reconsider.

 

[バラの心]

proud of u, this takes lots of strength! keep pushing thru the rough times :)

 

[hopelessgirl]

Wow proud of you! I'm struggling to decide whether I dare or not to throw away my SN because I don't think I'll ever get my hands on it again since I live in Norway. Could you explain to me how you were able to make that decision? My therapist is trying to make me throw it away because he said it seemed a little weird and fake that we were working on me getting better while I literally at the same time have poison in my closet and I'm afraid he'll stop treating me because of it. I'm so confused about the matter and it seems like I have a million thoughts about it that I just cannot sort.

 

[0000000000000]

A truly calm and reasonable person not like other apes who say 'the forum wanted me dead, the forum is evil!', it's like the forum doesn't force you to do anything just throw away your method if you want to continue living.

I hope you are doing well and good luck.

 

[Yakamoz]

Wow proud of you! I'm struggling to decide whether I dare or not to throw away my SN because I don't think I'll ever get my hands on it again since I live in Norway. Could you explain to me how you were able to make that decision? My therapist is trying to make me throw it away because he said it seemed a little weird and fake that we were working on me getting better while I literally at the same time have poison in my closet and I'm afraid he'll stop treating me because of it. I'm so confused about the matter and it seems like I have a million thoughts about it that I just cannot sort.

I'll DM you about my thought process when I get to home...

 

[hopelessgirl]

I'll DM you about my thought process when I get to home...

For some reason I don't have access to private conversations anymore :-( I think it's maybe because I didn't post enough

 

[Yakamoz]

For some reason I don't have access to private conversations anymore :-( I think it's maybe because I didn't post enough

I DM'de you

 

[LaVieEnRose]

İyi şanslar. Hope your life improves.

 

[Yakamoz]

İyi şanslar. Hope your life improves.

Your Turkish is getting better and better. Teşekkürler!

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Your Turkish is getting better and better. Teşekkürler!

Türkçem düşündüğünden çok daha iyi

 

[Yakamoz]

I was wrong I am suicidal again

 

[Custos]

I was wrong I am suicidal again

When I was on a psych ward someone said to me, when things are bad just remember that there were once better and could very well be better in the future. Basically "now" doesn't define you.

You weren't wrong, just keep remembering when things were better and realise that they will one day like that again.

Not sure if that helps, don't think I am explaining myself very well.

 

[HighFlight]

I was wrong I am suicidal again

I'm sorry to hear that. Please remember that recovery is not linear; you'll have both good and bad days.

The site has a lot of recovery resources pinned in the Recovery Forum. Also, the Recovery Support Group megathread is still active.

If you need someone to talk to, you are welcome to dm me.

Wishing you some peace, regardless of where your path will take you.

 

[tankapi]

Wow proud of you! I'm struggling to decide whether I dare or not to throw away my SN because I don't think I'll ever get my hands on it again since I live in Norway. Could you explain to me how you were able to make that decision? My therapist is trying to make me throw it away because he said it seemed a little weird and fake that we were working on me getting better while I literally at the same time have poison in my closet and I'm afraid he'll stop treating me because of it. I'm so confused about the matter and it seems like I have a million thoughts about it that I just cannot sort.

Are you making progress in therapy?

When I talked with suicide crisis workers, they completely understood that I didn't want to tell them my planned method so that supplies couldn't be taken away. One of them even said they understood that having the option to stop the pain could be a source of comfort for me, even if I didn't want to take that option.

It's strange to me that your therapist wouldn't understand this if they've been trained in mental health. If you like them, continue with them. But if you aren't getting much out of it, instead of worrying they will stop treatment, perhaps you might look for a new therapist?