Help I am not scared of death itself but I am of what happens after.

[painisinevitable]

Hi, Ive been suicidal for most of my life and there are only two things that are stopping me, the pain when I die and what would happen after?

I just want some reassurance, im an atheist but grew up catholic so even a small possibility of hell just makes it scarier because I cannot fathom another round of suffering after my whole life of basically endless pain.

I know its probably gonna just be nothing but how do you come peace to that?

Ive also only really attempted to ctb using paracetamol and hasnt really done me good, any tips are welcome.

 

[Aflame5926]

Hi, Ive been suicidal for most of my life and there are only two things that are stopping me, the pain when I die and what would happen after?

I just want some reassurance, im an atheist but grew up catholic so even a small possibility of hell just makes it scarier because I cannot fathom another round of suffering after my whole life of basically endless pain.

I know its probably gonna just be nothing but how do you come peace to that?

Ive also only really attempted to ctb using paracetamol and hasnt really done me good, any tips are welcome.

how old are ya if i may ask?

 

[painisinevitable]

how old are ya if i may ask?

how old are ya if i may ask?

Im turning 19 on april 27th

 

[Aflame5926]

and how old did your tentency started like the trigger of it?

 

[painisinevitable]

and how old did your tentency started like the trigger of it?

ever since i was conscious, so around 4 years of age i've thought about death, not being suicidal but just curious about it, then it developed

 

[outrider567]

There is nothing after, and I am at peace with that

 

[KinderCorn]

Don't need to worry about hell.

 

[theearthisburning]

i don't believe in heaven and hell but i believe there is another plane of existence one that is a lot better and more peaceful than earth, one where we will all be at peace no matter what karma we racked up in this life

 

[Shadows From Hell]

6 months before you were conceived, you were nothing, you weren't part of the world, no one knew you, you didn't exist.

6 months after your death, you are nothing, you are no longer part of the world, no one knows who you were, no one knows you ever existed.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me ceasing to exist is just the only peace and relief, in this existence so torturous and cruel for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing, all I fear is suffering for much longer in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I find it so painful how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer, all I want is to be permanently unconscious free from the terrible burden of existing, I'll only be glad to never suffer again, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[voc_89]

6 months before you were conceived, you were nothing, you weren't part of the world, no one knew you, you didn't exist.

6 months after your death, you are nothing, you are no longer part of the world, no one knows who you were, no one knows you ever existed.

this. This is how I think death is. Nothing. Just how there was nothing before you came into the world

 

[endboss]

I think the catholic church no longer teaches that eternal damnation awaits those who kms, especially if they suffered. I personally think you will just be reborn. You'll be someones baby and life starts again unless you reach nirvana, but as far as I know that takes some serious meditation effort.