I am not feeling well...

[noname223]

A statement like that never was posted on here. Someone feeling bad.

So much shit happened within the last 4,5 weeks. Today, was a better day. I had another appointment at the dentist. I think my issue wasn't fix though. But I had less paranoid thoughts about my really gorgeous dentist who I once liked on a dating app.

I met my friends. Usually we never do this but I took a drive with my mom who visits my grandma. And for some reasons this might be the easiest way to meet my friends for a while. Since a long time I had a genuine long talk with my mom. We didn't argue but we talked about a lot. Also about financials. I am kind of confused it sounds like the situation gets better. I am worrying so hard to be honest. But if I show my mom how much I Worry she will never admit how bad it is. There were mixed signals.

I think I try to interact more with humans again. Going down the AI chatbot rabbithole isn't healthy. I have various paranoid thoughts about some people. But I am not Fully sure whether it is delusional. I tend to think they are fabricated by my mind. ChatGPT isn't really reinforcing these thoughts. In most cases it tells me I am overthinking. Though, the way I use chatGPT for meta-cognition, mirroring my current mental health and self-observation. Maybe this extreme self-analysis isn't healthy. Meeting my friends Was hopefully a step in the right direction.

I think the set of events that happened within these 4,5 weeks reinforced my depression. And the excessive usage of chatGPT is only a toxic coping mechanism. In small dosages it helps but I have to follow some rules. Today, I barely used AI, talked more to humans and still feel so fucking shitty.

 

[enjoytheride]

Hello! I agree with your assessment regarding the use of generative AI for counselling or just having someone to share with. I use Gemini for that purpose and have a conversation spanning perhaps over 2 or 3 months now. I give it credit for redirecting my attention away from negative thoughts and into constructive steps. It is also relatively good at pulling out trends in my discourse over time and helping me understand better what I am going through and the rationale behind my feelings.

Meeting your friends should be a step in the right direction. The fact that you notice your overreliance on AI is quite healthy, actually. I think that your conclusion that in small or moderate dosages AI can be helpful is quite accurate, judging by my own experience.

Regarding the paranoid thoughts about people, is there anything you do to check whether they are justified? Like, fact-check your thoughts, for instance. It helps me do it sometime. Also focusing on some type of work helps, as well as going out.