I actually just want to die already

[StrawberryBlood]

nobody likes me. no one cares.

 

[TBONTB]

Do you want to say more about that?

 

[StrawberryBlood]

Do you want to say more about that?

I did in another post but didn't get any replies. I want to be an artist but feel silently rejected by every "community" I try to join. I think I might be potentially shadowbanned on a website I was using. I'm just tired of silent rejection.

 

[TBONTB]

I did in another post but didn't get any replies. I want to be an artist but feel silently rejected by every "community" I try to join. I think I might be potentially shadowbanned on a website I was using. I'm just tired of silent rejection.

Well I don't think I have much to say that can help. I know suggestions can be unhelpful, especially when you are coping with a lot. I just wanted to say hello and that you matter.

 

[Malfunction]

I did in another post but didn't get any replies. I want to be an artist but feel silently rejected by every "community" I try to join. I think I might be potentially shadowbanned on a website I was using. I'm just tired of silent rejection.

Sometimes posts don't get seen because of the sheer number of posts popping up. There's just soo many, I drop in a few when I can but I'm also here sporadically.

Sometimes people just don't know what to reply. I don't have great social skills, so my advice would be terrible for social issues. I'm an introvert, so I'd likely suggest avoiding people because people just drain me lol. But that's terrible advice for someone that wants social interaction.

Don't take it to heart. This is a good place, we all have issues and generally try to help each other.

I used to draw decades ago. I've always found it relaxing and it allowed me to express myself creatively. I never had the confidence to persue it and eventually stopped. The same happened with playing guitar. Though over the last few months, I've taken to playing an acoustic again that was given to me. I spend hours strumming random chords and its been relaxing.

If you enjoy what you create, then stay at it, and do it for you. Something you do could get noticed, and start you on a new journey.

 

[Unstable]

same why does it gotta be so hard i hate it, srry i couldt be more supportive just feelin that way too man

 

[StrawberryBlood]

same why does it gotta be so hard i hate it, srry i couldt be more supportive just feelin that way too man

It sucks. Do you mind me asking what kind of art you create? Does it involve darker subject matter? Mine does, I think it's why I'm silently rejected. I could entirely just be socially paranoid though, due to repeated negative experiences.

 

[Unstable]

It sucks. Do you mind me asking what kind of art you create? Does it involve darker subject matter? Mine does, I think it's why I'm silently rejected. I could entirely just be socially paranoid though, due to repeated negative experiences.

nothing good but when i get super depressed i create some suicide type art, not killin just depicting people losing their minds the way i feel im not too into gore atm but i know some ppl that love it not sure if its what u mean tho

 

[StrawberryBlood]

nothing good but when i get super depressed i create some suicide type art, not killin just depicting people losing their minds the way i feel im not too into gore atm but i know some ppl that love it not sure if its what u mean tho

My art is all based on my personal experiences which weren't (and aren't) all exactly peaches and cream. Mostly childhood experiences. Those were some of my worst.

 

[Unstable]

My art is all based on my personal experiences which weren't (and aren't) all exactly peaches and cream. Mostly childhood experiences. Those were some of my worst.

i see. im sorry to hear you've gone through rough stuff when you were a child, it feels like its so common nowadays with so many people experiencing different stuff it makes me so sad. some art just isn't for everyone, it does not make it bad though or have no value. i can see how some people may not be able to appreciate it, stuff like that is so complex and it's hard for some people who didn't go through those experiences to relate at times. all art has beauty and i hope you find your community and people who will see that and appreciate it as well as accept you and your art though, i wish you luck !!

 

[dontwakemeup]

I think it would be a great idea to post your art on here! You are safe here and we will give our honest opinions. If it's good, I will print it and hang it on my wall!

 

[StrawberryBlood]

I think it would be a great idea to post your art on here! You are safe here and we will give our honest opinions. If it's good, I will print it and hang it on my wall!

Honestly I'd like to now that you suggest it, but I'm scared of getting my online presence associated with this website because people think it's a death cult even though it's probably one of the nicest online spaces I've ever joined. Literally people just aren't fake and understand suicidal thoughts because we all have them on here. Sorry for the mini-rant, I just can't stand how this site is treated by non-users.

Maybe DM?

 

[dontwakemeup]

Honestly I'd like to now that you suggest it, but I'm scared of getting my online presence associated with this website because people think it's a death cult even though it's probably one of the nicest online spaces I've ever joined. Literally people just aren't fake and understand suicidal thoughts because we all have them on here. Sorry for the mini-rant, I just can't stand how this site is treated by non-users.

Maybe DM?

Of course you can always DM me. This site has probably saved more lives than suicide prevention campaigns! It's unfortunate we can be free to share art on here. But feel free to send it DM and I will put it into a picture frame and hang it on my wall

 

[KlixxFoxe]

We care about you!
I'm sure would be a really great artist

 

[StrawberryBlood]

Of course you can always DM me. This site has probably saved more lives than suicide prevention campaigns! It's unfortunate we can be free to share art on here. But feel free to send it DM and I will put it into a picture frame and hang it on my wall

I don't know if I can DM you I think because of your account settings. You might have to change them or DM me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My art is all based on my personal experiences which weren't (and aren't) all exactly peaches and cream. Mostly childhood experiences. Those were some of my worst.

Have you considered where you post? I don't know that much about online spaces but, I imagine there are sites that are used more for darker subject matter. Obviously, you need to steer clear of anything really dodgy I suspect. But, maybe it's the community itself- whether they just aren't inteterested in stuff that's too dark.

We once had a talk from an employer at uni. They were emphasizing the importance of researching the companies we submitted our work to. That we should research what kind of thing they specialised in. That some people submitted stuff that they wouldn't even consider- simply because it was so far away from what they work with. It's maybe the same for all art forms. The need to know where your audience is likely to be.