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blkgunchick

blkgunchick

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Jun 10, 2025
41
I missed it here…

Dreamed of Catching the bus
 
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QuincyME

QuincyME

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Feb 23, 2024
90
Not good. I slept for two hours last night. When I got home from work my brain started "sizzling" uncontrollably. If I didn't have neighbors, I could have easily grabbed the gun underneath my coffee table and pulled the trigger which I've been unable to do otherwise.
 
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Blahaj

Blahaj

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Jan 2, 2025
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I mean I doubt many people on the suicide forums are going to be doing swell, but I've been alright, all things considered. I've had a few dreams/nightmares of CTBing myself... don't know how to feel about them though. I've had a lot of intrusive thoughts about CTBing lately.
 
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lost_one

lost_one

Once
Nov 3, 2024
183
Horrible! 🎉
 
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Cosmophobic

Cosmophobic

Experienced
Aug 10, 2025
205
fine david schwimmer GIF


How are you?
 
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aria_of_a_dream

aria_of_a_dream

just a dream within a dream…
Aug 16, 2025
47
Living the nightmare
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
668
I've come to the realization that I am a disgusting, revolting human being. How can I live like this?

I can't, is the answer.
 
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Lyn

Lyn

Momentary
Mar 1, 2025
301
Bearable while on meds. But meds supply is not too big.
So just hanging on waiting for a miracle or for a final end. At least I have almost everything for it.
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

October will cure me
Jan 5, 2025
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,160
Got some decent stuff at the foodbank today, guess that's good.
 
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nool

nool

He who has not tasted grapes says sour
Aug 17, 2025
112
Honestly just lost in the haze of existing as I usually do. Bedrotting, scrolling through social media, the usual. Not living life, just going through the motions haha
 
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blkgunchick

blkgunchick

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Jun 10, 2025
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Not good. I slept for two hours last night. When I got home from work my brain started "sizzling" uncontrollably. If I didn't have neighbors, I could have easily grabbed the gun underneath my coffee table and pulled the trigger which I've been unable to do otherwise.
Smh
Honestly just lost in the haze of existing as I usually do. Bedrotting, scrolling through social media, the usual. Not living life, just going through the motions haha
Same
Got some decent stuff at the foodbank today, guess that's good.
Ooh
I mean I doubt many people on the suicide forums are going to be doing swell, but I've been alright, all things considered. I've had a few dreams/nightmares of CTBing myself... don't know how to feel about them though. I've had a lot of intrusive thoughts about CTBing lately.
Yes, true…
Oh
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,381
No matter what I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and I just wish that I never suffered more than anything in this existence, to me existence will always be an abomination that just causes pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing.

I really would never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake again, I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is all that's positive, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel existence.
 

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