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sanctionedusage

sanctionedusage

sanctioned sausage
Sep 17, 2025
476
it feels so awkward to think about

sometimes my sibling will mention telling their friends about me, whom ive never spoken to, and its so weird knowing that random strangers know me while i know nothing about them

and then one day it wont be 'sanctionedusage called me retarded shes being mean' itll be 'sanctionedusage just killed herself'

'it was a suicide'

'my sister hanged herself last night'

like shit. what a dark mood killer




and knowing i'll be used as a source of pity & leniency. needing time off work, 'my daughter passed away.'

'its been hard since my kid committed suicide,'

'sorry for my __, my daughter committed suicide last month.'



im glad im out of high school. the number of bitches that'd use me to get an extension on their papers is comical.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,551
I do wonder about it but then, it's so difficult to really judge what people will think or say. Part of me thinks they would be shocked but then, I can also see some people saying- there were always signs. I can't even really figure out if people will be sad or more pro-choice about it.
 
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srilankanbeyotch

Member
Dec 21, 2025
58
Im gonna leave a note and that would be it. They could interpret and acknowledge it however they want that best fits my ending in their perspective but only I know what the real meaning is. Plus when im dead, nothing will matter anymore.
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
Im gonna leave a note and that would be it. They could interpret and acknowledge it however they want that best fits my ending in their perspective but only I know what the real meaning is. Plus when im dead, nothing will matter anymore.
I thought about leaving a note decided not to, but maybe I should leave a note
 
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srilankanbeyotch

Member
Dec 21, 2025
58
I thought about leaving a note decided not to, but maybe I should leave a note
Its really up to your decision. I choose to leave a note since I know my family would want to blame it on someone opening a homicide investigation or something even though my CTB method would be an obvious case of suicide (SN)
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
Its really up to your decision. I choose to leave a note since I know my family would want to blame it on someone opening a homicide investigation or something even though my CTB method would be an obvious case of suicide (SN)
Where will you put the note?
 
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Exhausted546

Experienced
Dec 1, 2025
274
My family honestly wouldn't deserve me to leave a note. They'd dismiss my words even in death and go with their own narrative. My death would be taking agency and peace over my life for once
 
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StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
283
Pretty much like a retard who did a retarded thing
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,417
People can use me to get time off work all they want. The amount of devastation they will feel as a result if my death is well worth bring used as an excuse.
 
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jenson

A loser who belongs nowhere
Jul 13, 2025
39
Ehh I don't think it matters. I've thought about it for a while but why would people's opinions matter after you are dead. Like people who worry about deleting their browser history or the effect it will have on their friends/family or whatever, its not like you will be able to care when its all said and done. Thats what makes ctb so great, nothing matters after as long as you succeed.
 
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peacefulsleepnow

Member
Dec 17, 2025
57
Ehh I don't think it matters. I've thought about it for a while but why would people's opinions matter after you are dead. Like people who worry about deleting their browser history or the effect it will have on their friends/family or whatever, its not like you will be able to care when its all said and done. Thats what makes ctb so great, nothing matters after as long as you succeed.
This. Exactly.
 
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perishsong

it/she
Sep 10, 2025
65
While none of that matters once we're dead, it still feels so embarrassing to imagine when still alive 😬 I can almost hear the nauseating "oh no perishsong killed itself, it's gone too soon, wish we listened to it earlier sobsobsobsobsob" coming from the fakest people imaginable.
 
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TimingOut

☁️
Sep 7, 2025
162
Ehh I don't think it matters. I've thought about it for a while but why would people's opinions matter after you are dead. Like people who worry about deleting their browser history or the effect it will have on their friends/family or whatever, its not like you will be able to care when its all said and done. Thats what makes ctb so great, nothing matters after as long as you succeed.
It is greater when you know from your solitude that your death won't trouble anyone.
 
Sphinxi

Sphinxi

Student
Jan 4, 2026
121
I hope that I am remembered well. I doubt anyone will be surprised, and people will probably be slow to find out, as I don't maintain contact with anyone anymore. I think anyone that knew me intimately knew that I had my mind set on suicide ever since I was a young child. I have some unfinished writing, mostly my thoughts on philosophy, but also an incomplete memoir. Maybe somebody will make use or meaning out of that.
I don't think it's wise to delete your history, or to not leave behind a note. Anyone who wants to know about you should be able to.
 
guessilldie

guessilldie

Member
Jun 17, 2018
36
I'll be the gossip at work for like a day and then hopefully forgotten within a week
 
kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
236
I think about it from time to time. It doesn't matter anyway, when you're already gone, but thinking about it still feels awkward. As already mentioned, the "it's gone too soon, wish we listened to it earlier blahblahblah" thing is really embarrassing.

At least I hope I can leave something behind and it will make things a little easier for everyone.
 
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Baisley

Student
Jan 18, 2025
177
I would be remembered as I can't believe she did that. She must have been outta her mind. And of course gossip and some people saying how dumb it was ECT..
 

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