Discussion How would you spend your last day?

[Sergeant45]

Greetings,


let's say you picked a date to catch your final bus...


It doesn't matter if you don't actually have a date. Just hypothetically speaking, no worry. What would you do when your last day arrived, before it is time to actually go?

I think I would spend my day as usual if everything is already prepared. Maybe I would watch my favorite videos and movie a final time, listen to music, eat well, smoke up my pack of cigarettes over the day so nothing is wasted, but nothing too crazy to not raise suspicion. I would wash myself up and do my hair. Maybe pick out a nice outfit that my ghost will wear forever while haunting the people that have done me wrong too.... just kidding. I would then start scheduling the message that would automatically be sent to one person I'd have in mind when I am already gone.

It'd also depend on the method, but if I had to wait for death to set in for the one I've picked, I'd like for my beloved computer to stay on and keep playing the playlist of my favorite show too..... Even if I likely wouldn't live to get to watch the very last episode a final time. If it were a method I could not perform at home, it'd now be time for me to make my way outside.


Now you've heard enough about what I would do on my last day, but what about you?


Regards

 

[Darkover]

the same as any other day

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just finally feel relief that the suffering of this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake is coming to an end as all I want is to not exist, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured only non-existence is positive for me. Only non-existence can bring me any relief and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I don't wish to experience anything rather all I want is to cease existing painlessly, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep.

 

[Bad Ending]

I want it to be a normal ordinary day like the other days

 

[usernamesarehard]

Honestly I don't really know. I planned on leaving that month. Going to a rental and enjoying reading and cooking. I think on my last day I would want to read my favorite book or at least a really good one. Maybe watch ice age? It's my favorite movie. Maybe have a good meal at a nice restaurant? I don't really know what my final meal would be though.

 

[ginko0]

Read some of my favorite poems, smoke some cigs while listening to music, write my final words and then be free.

 

[EmptyBottle]

(if I decided to invoke my 'irreversible insurance plan', doubt I will in practice... but if that day arrives)
Probably browse the web as usual if I have time, before making a post saying '!! irreversible insurance plan in progress !!' and stating what I'd do, initiate the plan, and then who knows what happens next. Maybe the policy works, maybe it doesn't.

Tho I'd hope to still have my profile accessible for others to read (I will delete SaSu from browser history, have some false flag printout or similar to deter too much further investigation, remove my credentials from browsers, and ensure that they are gone with me should the insurance policy work and get executed)

 

[darksouls]

I would prefer to spend my last days in nature
rent a small cabin
as far away from people as possible
good food
good drinks
chilling music

 

[spoonfed]

Shower, shave, clean clothes and then, nothing else really just an ordinary day from the outside.

 

[Blanc]

In love, near the sea.
Then, in love, in the sea.

 

[kvorumese]

I would prefer to spend my last days in nature
rent a small cabin
as far away from people as possible
good food
good drinks
chilling music

That's a really great one, i love it

 

[outrider567]

Every day's the same, I'm done, defeated, and in despair, my depression is absolute, final day will be no different than any other day

 

[Ligottian]

Uh...killing myself.

 

[TAW122]

It would be hard to say how I'd spend my last day, though I would reference the time where I meticulously planned out my own CTB to the exact detail (the date, time, method, location, etc.) back in 2019. I don't think I'd do anything special and since that never actually came to pass in 2019 (due to a unusual turn in events a few months prior to my set date), I cannot say how I will feel at the very exact moment, whether unusual SI may kick in and mess with my intentions or attempt or not. However, I just know that I felt 'ready' and determined to CTB and wasn't really scared but just like a numb, but determined drive to see it through.

 

[itwillhappensoon]

my ctb will be sudden, and I'm not planning that day to be special ,I'll just do it when I feel certain about my decision.

 

[digitalblackhole]

man it really bums me out that so many people will treat just like any other day. i totally see the appeal and beauty of it though. for my final day i'd really like to wake up early, have breakfast at cracker barrel, go to my local nature and science museum, maybe the arcade for the bit, i'd like to see a psychic/fortune teller just for fun, there's a ghost tour i'd like to go to, have one last, huge, greasy burger, have one final smoke and then do the thing. maybe when the day i actually comes i won't feel like doing all that and just get it over with. i could also just do it impulsively on some random day before whatever date i plan.

 

[WeepingWorm]

Same as any other day, agreed. All of them have been the same for over a decade now, and they're all completely useless. Nothing's going to suddenly change just because I'm going to die that day or the next. Nor is there any need to celebrate it or give it any special treatment. Should have been dead much, much earlier. If anything I am filled with shame for every second that I am still alive.

man it really bums me out that so many people will treat just like any other day.

Yeah, well, none of the things you describe would even be exciting when there's always that feeling of burning but never dying. And when you've been so far removed from any normality or prerequisites for being a person that you have the same numb non-reaction to everything. What's the point? I'm sure many can relate.

 

[A Beautiful Walk]

Spend most of the day listening to my future funeral music, getting the method ready, posting my suicide note on social media and emails, then going through with it. By then, I would have already engaged in fun activities during the week prior.

 

[star.trip]

I think I'd do the same as always, I'd talk to the people closest to me and try to enjoy that day to the fullest, not doing anything crazy but enjoying the moments and every minute before leaving this world (listening to music, closing scars and traumas). I'd like to leave in peace, not reproaching anyone for anything. Finally, in the evening I do CTB, although I like to call it ending my journey.

 

[exe99109]

I'd try to do what brings me happiness. Try to let everyone that cares about me discreetly know that I care about them. Maybe by telling my mom her cooking tastes really good today or talk to my dad about sports.

 

[diopdawe]

on my final day, i just want to give one last big hug and kiss to my daughter and to my mom. I feel ashamed for wanting to ctb as a parent though. Some days I feel like i have no right to ctb. If not for my daughter, i wouldnt be here today

 

[33K1LLM3]

Wake up, make my bed, get dressed up, make my set up, watch dawn of the dead whilst I drink beer and take ibuprofen and paracetamol, finish movie, enter set up and pass out

 

[l.a557]

id do nothing all day. If I did all the things I loved, I'm scared it would make me wanna live again