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Moroze

Moroze

Defect
Aug 9, 2023
158
For me it's a mix of relief and disappointment. I'm disappointed that my family didn't accept me for who I am, or people who I considered friends.

But on the other hand, I'm relieved. I don't have to worry about the future anymore. Last weeks for me will be quite busy.

Finalising my exit, deleting accounts and putting everything in order.

The good this is that I will be able to spend time with my best friend. We met here and we instantly clicked.

We'll play video games, call, talk, and talk about the end goal. I really do consider myself lucky to have a friend like that.

Do you guys have any recommendations for multiplayer games? Like It Takes Two or such?

I want the last few weeks to be good. I want to forget about all my worries. I just have to keep thinking that the end line is so close and I can finally put my mind to rest for a bit.
 
ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
84
I'm so glad you have a friend like that for this time. If you guys are using steam, I've had a lot of fun playing PlateUp with my online friends. :) It's like Overcooked but less hectic.
Party Animals is another fun one, you're both cute wobbly animals and you fist fight other cute wobbly animals. And with that one only one person needs to own it I think there's a friends pass.
And then if you're into it, there's puzzle games like Case of the Golden Idol, Roottrees Are Dead, and the Duck Detective games. They're not multiplayer but they're fun to figure out together in a call. Escape Simulator is a great multiplayer game.

As for my last days, I still have all my affairs in order from my last attempt. Heck, all I need to do is make my note public again on facebook, I still have it. I have a few things I'd like to do first, like stargaze with a friend of mine and eat at a really nice sushi restaurant near me. But if I don't get to do these things, I am still at peace with leaving. The way I see it, once I'm gone nothing will matter. I won't be around to miss anything so there's no FOMO here
 
birdie8

birdie8

sorting through my thoughts
Jun 7, 2025
18
I plan on getting my affairs in order at least a month beforehand so that I can spend my last few weeks enjoying myself. I have weighed my options and ctb is the right choice for me, so I want to make the most of the time I have been now and then. Probably go to bars/clubs, smoke a shit ton of weed, try new foods, play an egregious amount of Fallout, and hangout with some of my friends. As someone with OCD and chronic illnesses, It's incredibly freeing to know the suffering will be temporary and relief will be found soon. Otherwise my future is suffering through incredibly debilitating illnesses, both with no cure (only bandaid solutions). In the final week I will most likely cut everyone off and self isolate, quietly making my exit far from anyone who knows me.
 

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