For several years now, the only reason I remain in this world is fear, with solid justification, of the impact my leaving will have on my wife and a handful of others. My feelings about this have evolved from a sense of responsibility and honor to a growing resentment of being morally trapped. If I could find a way to believe that I have done my best for my loved ones and soften the blow with some sort of emotional preparation for them, I'd CT next B. Honestly, I would have done so years ago...my reasons are steady.
Can any of you give me a perspective on a path out of this trap of being committed to others? For instance, I have thought about behaving badly to break the relationships first; but that would be a deception I struggle to visualize, and I might fail. I have thought about just disappearing, but the lack of closure that leaves behind may be more painful for them.
Can any of you give me a perspective on a path out of this trap of being committed to others? For instance, I have thought about behaving badly to break the relationships first; but that would be a deception I struggle to visualize, and I might fail. I have thought about just disappearing, but the lack of closure that leaves behind may be more painful for them.
