• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block.

L

lizzywizzy09

Arcanist
May 11, 2024
460
To those whose circumstances mean recovery isn't an option, how do you go day to day in the meantime without being in utter terror and despair?

If I stay, I will suffer tremendously for the rest of my life. That is as certain as the sun coming up. Realistically, ctb is the most logical solution but I'm still human and have the same instincts as anyone else. I also need to get through the day in the meantime but am filled with existential terror every time I wake up to a new day. How do you relax knowing you're stuck between two horrible options?
 
  • Aww..
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Whydid, Username1359751, Manfrotto99 and 2 others
V

VoidedExistence

Student
Dec 6, 2023
103
It doesn't work much but I disassociate myself with reality. I don't really feel like I am living in the real world. I just live inside my mind with my mind made horrors. But every now then, I have to face reality and that's when the real horror kicks and I am petrified. I am sorry, this was not much of use.
 
nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
859
SI is a bitch. Very hard to override.
 
M

Manfrotto99

Arcanist
Oct 10, 2023
452
I've lost everything and am now just waiting to overcome my SI. I am very close. I'm just managing to get through each day at a time by going to the gym and taking lots of anxiety meds and sleeping tablets to calm the fear and anxiety. I do not know what else to do.
 
Last edited:
Mlifos & Sitoa

Mlifos & Sitoa

nothing gets better
Aug 17, 2024
75
If I had a gun, I think I'd overcome my instincts. Because it's just a second, maybe shorter. I just need to feel extremely depressed like sometimes I do, and it's easy when everything is depressing actually. But if we're talking about the other methods, I'm really afraid to do them. Because I'm tired of this endless pain. I don't wanna feel any pain when I'm gonna die at least.
 

Similar threads

EternalHunger
Venting Dreams
Replies
0
Views
90
Offtopic
EternalHunger
EternalHunger
starinthesky
Replies
22
Views
536
Offtopic
Eternal Disaster
Eternal Disaster
DarkRange55
Replies
2
Views
90
Politics & Philosophy
noname223
N
JamieIsEepy
Replies
0
Views
188
Suicide Discussion
JamieIsEepy
JamieIsEepy