How to cope after a breakup???

[Meowers]

I broke up with him yesterday. And I regret it, so bad. I am disinterested in doing anything else than doomscrolling and rotting in my bed. Eating feels like a sin. I ate a sandwich but I don't like feeling "full" so I purged to feel clean and empty. I used to be a compulsive SH-er and it got so bad before I got sent to the hospital and spent time on the psych ward which is not free. The costs made me quit. I was spending so much on my SH supplies and hospital visits. I am currently clean for a year and three months. But now, I keep on fantasizing slicing my arm and mess it up. I believe I have no ability of how to cope in a healthy way, everything feels too exhausting now. How to cope in a way that is healthy when healthy coping is just not interesting and sounds so exhausting? I'm just so tired right now, and I want the pain and all this crying to go away. How to convince yourself that you're not a terrible person? It feels like delusion.

 

[monday?]

the way i got through the first few weeks of a painful breakup was rewatching bojack horseman. put on a nice comfort show that you've seen before, get yourself something to eat and take small bites throughout the day if eating is hard and accept that you're gonna be in pain for a while. it doesn't get less painful but it makes it a bit easier to bear. try to go easy on yourself for a while. that's what helped me at least. if you have friends to talk about it with that helps even more

 

[elpurp]

completely agree with monday here, indulge in your favorite media and give yourself grace if you do relapse. i also broke up with my ex a month ago and i'm still single and it fucking sucks but then the feeling passes.

it's so corny and you prolly don't wanna hear it but i promise you it does get better. eventually it won't hurt so much anymore. you got this.