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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,087
Several hundreds of times a day I think. I keep going over different methods of learned then realizing I can't do them. Then looking at how shitty life is, then thinking fuck I have to kms, then thinking of methods, then realizing I can't do them


Was going to partial this morning but quickly realized the bedsheet requires a lot of modification to work. Now I'm fucking stuck here with no one to talk to, nothing to do or watch but get fatter as I lose what's left of my money.

This is the best my life ever going to be. I can't take another second and I have 50 years left.
 
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Bad Ending

Bad Ending

Anhedonia and PSSD sufferer
Mar 16, 2025
86
From the moment I wake up until I sleep
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Hi
Mar 31, 2025
286
I've already thought it through and how I'd do it but Im just thinking about the day I'll start it all.
 
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UserFromNowhere

Member
May 4, 2025
77
Everyday, multiple times a day. I've said on these forums that I would not wish for this ideation if it was my choice, but it's not. My mind has already thrown me onto the chopping block, waiting for the axe to fall. I just wait for a reliable method to arrive, one that frees me from these thoughts and this pitiful existence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,770
I'm always wishing to not exist and as long as I exist I'll always and only hope for non-existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake is finally all forgotten about, non-existence really is all I could ever wish for and is all I've hoped for, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured the peace of non-existence is all that's desirable for me.

I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, simply just existing really is enough to make me wish to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to not exist and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed, I just wish I never suffered at all, I find it so unbearable how one can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age.
 
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gr33navocad0

Member
May 16, 2025
16
I think about it from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep. I'm so so tired. My anxiety is a mess. I'm just waiting to get everything I need.
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
462
I always think about the day I'm going to kill myself
 
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bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,993
When I get up, when I go to sleep, and several times in between.
 
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GhostInTheMachine

GhostInTheMachine

Safeguard
Nov 5, 2023
268
All day, every day, all night, every night.
 
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