Discussion How much time do you have left

[theangelswept]

Have you set a date for yourself? How much time do you have left? Why did you choose that date? What time of day or night are you going to ctb?

 

[ma0]

Some point in the next 2 years, I'd say. Not narrowed down anything specific yet.

 

[NitrogenAfternoon]

Few months at most, sometime around after March, no later than June. I will not be living this summer out, that's for sure.

 

[human909]

Well, my next attempt will be in april or may haven't decided which month.

 

[montanatype]

I had planned to live until at least 2027, I got my SN on november and the idea doesn't stop persisting, so, I guess a few months

 

[DoneWithThisLife]

23 days. That's my sister's birthday and she is the person who has killed me. Not sure what time. gotta wait till hubby takes dog for a walk & I can slip out without him noticing.

 

[drag201]

Sometime in the next two years i hope

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

This year or it'll get emotionally and mentally worse from here and I can't endure anymore…. I just can't!!

 

[loneloser]

I chose my birthday which is the 17th of February. Or before it. I really hope I go through with it, I can't stand being a year older and being alive. Everything just gets worse, nothing gets better.

 

[femcelloser]

I don't have an exact date picked but I really don't see myself having another year in me

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I haven't set a date so I honestly have no clue. I tend to try my best to avoid impulse attempts simply as they have a higher risk of failing.

 

[Anhaedra]

I have until the 7th of May to find out if life is worth living or not

 

[divinemistress36]

I would say in a year but i said that last year and here I still am

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

15th, July, my birthday. But I don't think I'll bear until there, so probably going to CTB in a few months. I decided to die at home, period of night. Btw, accepting suggestions on how to CTB this day, as the only method I can achieve is SN, and want to think about a plan B.

 

[Boots2Scoots]

2-4 days. All depends on how I feel. It's coming though

 

[JesiBel]

I would say in a year but i said that last year and here I still am

There is no rush, it is better to be super determined before trying.

I prefer not to set dates or time limits or my anxiety becomes worse.

Hugs to everyone.

 

[loneloser]

I have until the 7th of May to find out if life is worth living or not

Which ever your choice is, good luck to you. I wish you well.

 

[nomoredolor]

Have you set a date for yourself? How much time do you have left? Why did you choose that date? What time of day or night are you going to ctb?

I keep waffling back and forth. I was thinking November so that a couple of events could happen before I Ctb. But the volatile political climate in the USA may affect the timing. And now I find out I have to find a new place to live by the first of April. Which gives me time to plan but I honestly might just Ctb before then. Idk. I want to Ctb sooner than later and I keep putting it off for my loved ones. I'm wracked with guilt for what I am going to do to them. I wish very much for god to just put me out of my misery so I don't have to be the one to do it.

I will be Ctb mid morning. That way I would've already fasted the night before. I'll send my usual morning messages and I'll let ppl know that I am going to be out of town with no cell service for a couple days. I'll actually be home tho. I'll take care of any last minute preparations and I'll get the SN protocol ready. Then I'll look at photos of my best friend and think about him while I die. I might put a soundtrack on repeat I'm not sure yet.

I'll make sure there is a note on the inner door advising the person entering to call the police and not come in any further.

I'm looking forward to not having to hurt anymore.

Anna

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I hope to ctb by next month or sooner. But that all depends on how the plan goes!

 

[masquerade]

within a year if things don't improve

 

[_Maya]

a couple years at most, the only thing stopping me from doing ctb is my grandpa who is the only person to genuinely love me. if everything becomes too unbearable i might attempt earlier.

 

[noidea1984]

Have you set a date for yourself? How much time do you have left? Why did you choose that date? What time of day or night are you going to ctb?

Aiming for 2 weeks, MAYBE next Tuesday. Under my circumstances, gotta go fast. The plan has been in works for months though, it just took this long for me to find a relatively peaceful and ludicrously fast method

 

[NegevChina]

Aiming for 2 weeks, MAYBE next Tuesday. Under my circumstances, gotta go fast. The plan has been in works for months though, it just took this long for me to find a relatively peaceful and ludicrously fast method

I'm aiming for few days, but no more than 2 weeks. Is it ok to ask what method your planing?

 

[catchthebussoonuk]

I will by the end of Feb. I am looking for a partner if possible which I know is a long shot but it would be nice to support someone else at the same time and nit to be alone.

 

[noidea1984]

I'm aiming for few days, but no more than 2 weeks. Is it ok to ask what method your planning?

Basically an "exit bin" with CO as an alternative to an exit bag. I have a post up explaining how it will work

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish I have the option to just painlessly free myself from this existence and never suffer ever again but of course I'm so cruelly denied that with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where finally all is forgotten about for me. Nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I just want nothingness instead, I just find it so painful and dreadful how the option for me to cease existing painlessly with no risks of trying to die going wrong is denied for me even know this torturous, futile existence was imposed in the first place, I'd never wish for any time spent suffering in this existence, to me existence really is an abomination, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence.

 

[Miss_Anthropy]

Before I'm 30, for sure. But I probably won't make it more than a year or two.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

normally, A few months if nothing change, i do not really want to do it but what life propose me for the following is purely torture.

 

[LeavingThisHell]

I prefer not to set dates or time limits or my anxiety becomes worse.

I tried that but my mind is too systematical and I always end up finding an ideal date to do it. Now it's getting closer to this day and some anxiety is already starting to come to surface (although I try to suppress it). I just hope I can behave "normally" around others as things will probably keep escalating from here on.

OP question: Basically it will be in a few weeks, I chose a day that's distant from all my loved ones' birthdays so that they won't have a sad birthday because of me.