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hmnow

hmnow

Member has ceased to exist.
Jul 29, 2025
265
Id say only three people know I'm suicidal and they only know me online

There are no real life friends that know and don't catch on when you I bring up topics of suicide
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Global Mod · Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,530
Basically anyone I am somewhat close with and some others knows I am suicidal, family, any online friends, any metal health worker. I find it very hard to hide at all cus of how emotional I am.
 
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Silver The Hedgehog

Silver The Hedgehog

i Don't even exist bro
Sep 14, 2025
59
6 people or so irl, 3 of them close. Doesn't make a difference if 1, 2, 3 or none. Nothing changes for me at the moment
 
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trist

trist

Student
Mar 21, 2023
152
my parents knew five years ago when i got hospitalized after my first (and only) attempt, but they think i've been ok since. the only other person that knew was my best friend but she ctb'ed last month so no one knows about it now.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Good question. I'd say none though therapist knows I talk about it. I told her if it was easy I'd do it. If you could flip a switch I'd flip it. But there's no switch. Others know I'm acting very differently, but wouldn't suspect suicidal.
 
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LackOfDetermination

LackOfDetermination

Nothing Without Determination.
Sep 2, 2025
54
I think my sisters may suspect I'm somewhat depressed, but definitely not that I'm suicidal.
 
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ABadPerson

ABadPerson

something’s off | internet black goop
Oct 24, 2025
101
My family know due to me landing in intensive care once but they don't care, outside of them nobody else; people usually think I'm just an interesting guy irl.
 
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ponderingkoala

ponderingkoala

Member
Oct 27, 2025
11
I'll say nobody cause I'm really good at hiding it plus I'm philosophical and a bit of a narcissist (the good kind lol. I care about people a lot but I can't help but always think about my own life and problems plus i over compensate with being kind). Majorly i can't be that vulnerable to anyone so no just me and my lonesome.
 
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ineedsomerest

ineedsomerest

Member
Oct 27, 2025
18
nobody at all. I'm not close with anyone and have been alone for over a decade now. I feel like a martian here.
 
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kurgan

kurgan

Wanderer
Jun 6, 2025
298
Tell no one, not worth the risk.
 
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Sadocan

Sadocan

Member
Oct 23, 2025
11
I told my family I was suicidal way back in 2022. Got scolded by a distant uncle, then everything went on as usual. They never spoke about it again. I don't think they cared all that much.
 
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SparkleWater

SparkleWater

Student
Oct 13, 2020
110
I think they know. Especially my bf. My dad knows. My mom knew. But I think they thought I had it under wraps for the most part. Don't think I'll actually do it.
 
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

why couldn't it be me?
Feb 3, 2025
515
Basically anyone I am somewhat close with and some others knows I am suicidal, family, any online friends, any metal health worker. I find it very hard to hide at all cus of how emotional I am.
Exactly the same scenario. God bless their souls, they try to help me, keep me company, but I'm too far gone and I don't want to be here after all I've been through.
 
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Gronwell

Member
Oct 27, 2025
10
My parents are well aware, as well as a few close friends.
Only one person knows that I've just bought the nitrogen for my exit bag tho.
 
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brownhorse

New Member
Oct 23, 2025
1
I (separately) told my mother and a close friend that I was suicidal. Both were kind about it, but I don't think either realised how frequently and intensely I feel this way; I believe they both think I was just having a particularly low point that has since passed. I told another group of friends when we were all extremely drunk, but I don't know how seriously they took it, and I think (and hope) that they don't remember the conversation. Sometimes I wish I never told anybody because I don't want to worry anyone, other times I desperately want people to know how bad I feel, and want them to be concerned. Probably because I imagine it would make them more understanding/forgiving of my many failures in life.
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
261
Irl? Basically anyone who knows me which isn't many, as I don't have friends. I don't care to lie, but I generally don't speak to people either so it's like family plus maybe three? Not really online except for here honestly. No one gives a shit too it's honestly kind of funny in a fucked up way.
 
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Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
511
Just my family. Though they think it's passive ideation and that I'm better now when in reality I'm crumbling.
 
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L1feless

L1feless

caffeine addict
Jul 25, 2025
19
no one needs to know
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Paragon
Sep 21, 2022
940
Just the family and that's because of my past suicide attempts. I don't think anyone else knows.
 
PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
555
All my immediate family know.
 
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autisticbrain13

Member
Aug 21, 2025
32
my friends know i've experienced suicidal thoughts recently, a trusted colleague (and now good friend) knew of my "plans" - i hadn't bought what i needed to carry it out. i'm lucky to have her.

i did reach out to my GP, because it's the worst it's been and i've been through the cycle of CBT and talking therapies a number of times. From that, i've been referred to DBT.

i don't know. sharing helped alleviate my immediate feelings somewhat, but then this is something i always come back to and i really do feel like i will do it one day. it makes sense to, because what else is there? despite having some really lovely people around me, i still feel really alone and stuck in my circumstances.
 
Benjiii

Benjiii

Member
Oct 20, 2025
28
Only my best friend knows; she was the only person I had the confidence and courage to talk to because of how good a listener she is, something that didn't happen with my psychologist or psychiatrist.
 

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