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Upon a hanging Body

Upon a hanging Body

Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
833
All I can say about me is that I've made over 10 attempts and I've been to the hospital over 10 times for attempts .
I've been in psych wards 7 times and I doubt it will ever stop.
 
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hmnow

Member
Jul 29, 2025
67
I have made two serious attempts where I was hanging and ready to die. The anchor had other ideas

Other times I have tested by having a noose sling over a beam but held by my hand to see if I could pass out
 
deep-sleeper

deep-sleeper

Member
Aug 16, 2025
49
2 but I don't really consider them real attempts because I was just being a dumb teenager and I was never in any real danger
 
voyager_9999

voyager_9999

Member
Jul 23, 2025
26
1, by exsanguination. failed horribly because of sheer incompetence and unlikelihood to work. it was a very impulsive decision...
 
Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
520
2 OTC pill overdoses as a child
2 near-lethal partial hanging attempts as an adult
1 drowning attempt as an adult

So, about 5. I'm not including the countless rehearsals and practice runs.
 
eattwinkiesseejesus

eattwinkiesseejesus

Praying for death to a God that doesn't answer
Jan 18, 2025
122
Tried hanging once
Rubbing alcohol once
Bleach once
4 major Otc 'cocktail' overdoses

Only hospital stay was a result of me crashing out after being up for a week in full blown mania, tried to take a cocktail to sleep in desperation ended up with serotonin syndrome and they called it a suicide attempt. Led to a one week stay in the ward in December.

Currently have a hopeful method in progress, death by intentional organ failure thru long term acetaminophen abuse. The way my health is these days, this attempt has the high probability to be my last🤞 but if im still here by my birthday 🔫 I have plans to "celebrate"
 
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onetimereject

onetimereject

Living the life of a problem
Jun 18, 2023
35
Twice hanging. Didn't even remember how i failed. Probably just dumb.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,454
I haven't properly attempted as after all I'm so cruelly denied the option to just cease existing peacefully that is guaranteed so that finally I can be free from this dreadful, torturous abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake.

It's so terrifying to me how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse torture and agony in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered at all, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be free from the abomination of existence.
 
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AreWeWinning

AreWeWinning

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Nov 1, 2021
383
All I can say about me is that I've made over 10 attempts and I've been to the hospital over 10 times for attempts .
I've been in psych wards 7 times and I doubt it will ever stop.

You make it sound like a competition.

I had 0.

I'll only have one attempt and make sure I succeed at it.

I don't know about you or anyone else's "attempts" (nor do I care), but in general, if someone has over 10 attempts, then I'm probably going to disagree with that person on what counts as an attempt.

For example, I once heard a woman on a podcast explaining in a bubbly but dramatic voice that "In my last attempt, I called my brother and told him I'm going to end my life, then I took the pills and lay down on my bed". Seriously? What does someone like that expect to happen?? When I hear people like that, I don't feel any sympathy. I hate them for abusing the concept of being suicidal and using it for their selfish attention whoring. It was just a random example to illustrate my point.

Seeing this, you're probably going to explain why you're different and why you are special... Go ahead. We're all special, just in different ways.
 
smellyleaf

smellyleaf

Worthlessly Waiting
Aug 20, 2025
2
You make it sound like a competition.


Seeing this, you're probably going to explain why you're different and why you are special... Go ahead. We're all special, just in different ways.
It's hard to read tone over the internet. We don't have any idea what else that guy thinks & I don't think it's fair to assume. I'm not that poster, but I've made 5 attempts in 20 years.

I can't speak for that guy, I can only speak for me: I'm not special. I'm just stupid & incapable & disabled. This is true for me in EVERY area of my life, not just my attempted suicides lol. When I was really young I didn't understand much about the body, & my first two attempts were never going to work because they were too painful, but I didn't understand the psychological reactions to pain at that age & thought I could do it. The third I was almost successful but I made a stupid error that cost me. The 4th was a complete failure because I tried another extremely painful method I made up….. 5th was the closest I ever got & I'm doing research now so I won't mess up ever again.

For me, I don't like myself. I'm sure that's common here, not special at all. So sometimes there is a huge temptation to self harm during my suicide. Sometimes even though I know some methods work better, they don't seem violent or painful enough for someone like me. I just have a desire to really make sure I suffer appropriately. Which is somehow counterproductive to my suicide. But I certainly don't feel special at all. I don't know why you'd assume that.

Most commonly I just feel enraged with myself that I am so worthless I can't even end my own life correctly. That's the entire reason I'm here, personally. I'm sure lots of people feel the same, it's not unique or special
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,129
5 serious attempts, 3 impulsive attempts
 
bloominghopelessne

bloominghopelessne

Member
Aug 9, 2025
22
At least five times I've tried jumping from shared balconies, that's it. The next one will be fatal. Let it be so.
 
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starinthesky

starinthesky

mouse
Aug 13, 2025
33
I had 2 attempts so far, both hanging. Went horribly because I'm too stupid for my own good. Second time I fell and hurt myself pretty badly, so I'm looking for other methods
 

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