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ZeroM24

ZeroM24

Student
Oct 31, 2024
105
Since 2014. I was 12 years old. But it got way worse in the last 2 years.
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
597
Since I was 9, made my first attempt at 11
 
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vanibless

vanibless

Aryjski gaj
Nov 9, 2024
38
Since I was 11, before that I was also unhappy with my life but idk if I thought about suicide as much as much I started at that age and do now
 
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badandsmall

badandsmall

New Member
Nov 13, 2024
3
11 years. Went through the whole therapy/psych thing. Didn't work.
 
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TANETS

TANETS

Silly girl w a Viktor tsoi obsession .
Nov 11, 2024
115
On and off since 2016 I believe. 2018 is when I felt the strongest suicidal ideation of my life, where I was close to jumping out of my apartments window. The only thing holding me back was my fear of the pain
 
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Tired_of_myself

Tired_of_myself

Student
Jan 2, 2024
144
it's been more than 20 years, my first attempt I was 12
 
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JoysoftheEmptiness

JoysoftheEmptiness

Experienced
Sep 10, 2024
237
I been suicidal for too long. I'm a survivor, but its so fucking painful. I never stop crying.
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
798
About 10 years at this point
 
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ctemourge

ctemourge

and by the time ur hearing this ill already b gone
Aug 14, 2023
120
since i was 7 :( im 22 now lol
 
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thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
172
around 12 years. more than half my age.
 
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Unleashtherain

Unleashtherain

Student
Nov 12, 2024
112
For the past 4 years. Ironically, after receiving "help".
 
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lexx

lexx

Member
Nov 13, 2024
20
Almost 15 years... fuck
 
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Pessimist

Pessimist

Wizard
May 5, 2021
672
A lot of time has passed but I still think it's an interesting and important thread.
 
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Riu

Riu

Clueless
Apr 5, 2023
111
Fourth grade I had the thought that it would be better to die.
 
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thelostautistic

Experienced
Jul 31, 2025
247
I'm 24 and it's nearly been 13 years since I started feeling suicidal. I can't remember what it's like to not feel this way😭
 
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sessh0maru

Member
Feb 21, 2026
7
it started when i was in the 5th grade and got full on depressed. i was cutting myself and was forced to get counselling. i attempted in the 6th, 7th, and 8th grade multipule times, with no sucsessful attemps.
 
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♡Sayori_Kinnie♡

♡Sayori_Kinnie♡

Member
Feb 4, 2026
13
Since I was ten, but it was mostly passively. Like, I didn't actively try to CTB but I wouldn't have minded if I died either.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
253
9 years old was my first attempts. sometimes the thoughts have gone away but never for very long. usually i am at least passivlely suicidal.
 
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TwoSoulsLiveInMe

TwoSoulsLiveInMe

I Am Happy Nowhere
Feb 6, 2026
34
About 12 years, with a short reprieve from those thoughts from when I was 20-21, but it's never really gone away or gotten better.
 
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CuckoosInvisible

CuckoosInvisible

Member
Feb 23, 2026
18
passive ideation at 10 y/o active ideation starting sometime during adolescence
 
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aesthetic

aesthetic

forever young
Feb 28, 2026
35
i've been suicidal for years and not a day goes by that i don't think about killing myself.
 
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