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mutsu

mutsu

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May 17, 2026
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i'm curious how people want to live out their final day/days, would you want to live it out like normal? do all your favorite things? go somewhere far?

personally i would probably just live it out normally with the exception of getting my favorite food~
 
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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
690
Most days I feel like a dead person that's somehow still breathing. I'd like to actually feel alive on my final day. I genuinely don't know what could bring me enough joy or satisfaction to even make me feel alive though.
 
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NoName_NoLife

NoName_NoLife

Illuminated
Aug 12, 2024
24
I think I'd prefer to spend it like any other day and just do what I usually do, without drawing attention to it. I'd be worried that someone might try to influence my decisions. And in my case, it would seem odd if I suddenly took off somewhere.
 
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ThePainKiller

ThePainKiller

The Deadman
Sep 18, 2025
13
Probably mind my own business and prepare for my ascension.
 
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EndlessRage

EndlessRage

Student
Aug 30, 2025
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i'm curious how people want to live out their final day/days, would you want to live it out like normal? do all your favorite things? go somewhere far?

personally i would probably just live it out normally with the exception of getting my favorite food~
Doesn't mean much to me, i wish someone would just slit my throat.
 
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Tomorrow Is Today

Tomorrow Is Today

don’t get any big ideas
May 16, 2026
75
I used to want it to be theatrical and fun, in a go out with a bang sort of way. Nowadays I accepted that it was just a coping mechanism to deal with how scared I was of dying.

I don't have anymore unfinished business, so I guess I just want my last day to be as comfortable as possible, before I take that final step.
 
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pedro3211

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Jun 10, 2026
45
I'd probably smoke some cigarettes for the first time in awhile, listen to some music and go for a walk I guess
 
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Bunabelldearest

Bunabelldearest

Internet angel ໒꒱
Jun 21, 2026
10
I'd want to draw. Until the time I drop It'd just want to doodle and listen to stupid drama videos. Its the only time I feel truly okay so I'd just want to do that while I preferably OD
 
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mutsu

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May 17, 2026
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I'd want to draw. Until the time I drop It'd just want to doodle and listen to stupid drama videos. Its the only time I feel truly okay so I'd just want to do that while I preferably OD
i think i'd like to draw as well, art is one of the few things i still enjoy, even if i can't do it as much anymore

also hello ame chan~
 
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Bunabelldearest

Bunabelldearest

Internet angel ໒꒱
Jun 21, 2026
10
i think i'd like to draw as well, art is one of the few things i still enjoy, even if i can't do it as much anymore

also hello ame chan~
Hello Kurumi! I'm glad art can still be somewhat enjoyable even in the lowest lows
 
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coolcow1289

Student
Mar 17, 2026
144
I know I will feel exceptionally awful. Because that's how I feel when I get SI and that's how I'm going to die. I wish I could feel calm and content. Just at peace and with nature. I always imagined my last hours being by a creek, in the fall with the orange leaves, in the woods somewhere. Sitting listening to the rustling leaves. Not to get too sentimental, but I've had that dream a few times.
 
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Mrs. T-800

Mrs. T-800

schwarzenegger fangirl ♡t-800 from t2 is my love♡
Nov 25, 2025
113
I'll like to just live it normally. Maybe on a weekend so I can feel a little fulfilled. I begin every day with coffee and newspaper at 5:45am, say my prayers, then watch some news, read a book or magazine, have cereal and a movie on the weekend.
In between if I could have some events where I see my grandparents and my mom. I'll be with my husband regardless, I don't like to leave the house without him. Maybe, too, go rollerskate at the seaside park with my husband, have ice cream, Indian or Vietnamese food for lunch and a light beer or wine.
If I can leave this life at the end of the day, I'll like it to be around late afternoon or dusk, to see the streetlamps from my window, to have the Terminator 2 VHS tape on on my vintage TV (desert scene), lay down on my bed and just... close... my eyes.
 

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