How do you decide when it's time to CTB?

[JaegerBombastic]

I'm so miserable. Every night I go to sleep and hope I don't wake up. Obviously, I've been considering CTB for a while now; I already have a plan in place. But I can't seem to get this feeling out of my head that maybe I should wait. I think I'm hoping things will be different, or that my mental health will suddenly get better.

It's not that I have any strong desire to keep living, I just don't know when the right moment will come. I'm so tired.

 

[avstin]

there is never a right moment. maybe one day a sudden trigger will come, many people take their lives on impulse, but there is no perfect moment:( a better tomorrow may or may not come; at some point you just get tired of waiting

 

[JaegerBombastic]

there is never a right moment. maybe one day a sudden trigger will come, many people take their lives on impulse, but there is no perfect moment:( a better tomorrow may or may not come; at some point you just get tired of waiting

It feels like that's what's gonna end up happening. I think I'm just so anxious about it, I don't want it to happen on a whim.

 

[finalmission]

When I will be mentally strong enough, so might be tomorrow or next week, month (i hope tomorrow)

 

[avstin]

It feels like that's what's gonna end up happening. I think I'm just so anxious about it, I don't want it to happen on a whim.

all I can say is - take your time. there is no need to rush someting as inevitable as death. I think there's no point in stressing about it, and it's better to approach it calmly. think it through, make peace with leaving. if you ever need someone to talk to, don't be afraid to reach out:) and take care, I wish you all the best

 

[FuneralCry]

For me I'd just never want to suffer in this torturous, cruel and dreadful existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and I only continue to be burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence as a result of being so cruelly denied the option to never suffer again with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what. For me ceasing to exist is all that's right, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to peacefully prevent all future torture and to me existing will always be torture.

 

[Imausername]

For me its when i get a call/text/letter telling me they are gonna charge me for some things where its rigged against me where the law doesnt let me defend myself or care for the context. Anything u think is a defense is only something to lower a charge and with the mandatory mins/requirements im just gonna CTB.
Im struggling to hold out till that call. The temptation to CTB now before i get the pain of knowing is so hard to ignore.