How do you cope with the wait ?

[E4syW3y0u7]

I'm waiting for my method to arrive and i'm just rotting in bed, trying to avoid sunlight and be awake when it's night time and somewhat calm.

Can't play the games i loved, watch shows, anime, the music, everything is bland, can't even enjoy food or drinks, they have no taste.

The only thing i know for real is that i am entirely focused on that method arriving, that's the only thing that matters.

Yet it isn't there and it's driving me crazy, straight up insane. I try to drink to pass time faster but it's not doing that good of a job.

There's nothing left for me to enjoy or look forward to except my way of ctb, which makes me angry aswell because i couldn't muster the courage to use more accessible and direct methods.

How do you cope with the wait when nothing else matters ?

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I wish I knew, it's honestly unbearable.

 

[peacebenow]

I'm waiting for my method to arrive and i'm just rotting in bed, trying to avoid sunlight and be awake when it's night time and somewhat calm.

Can't play the games i loved, watch shows, anime, the music, everything is bland, can't even enjoy food or drinks, they have no taste.

The only thing i know for real is that i am entirely focused on that method arriving, that's the only thing that matters.

Yet it isn't there and it's driving me crazy, straight up insane. I try to drink to pass time faster but it's not doing that good of a job.

There's nothing left for me to enjoy or look forward to except my way of ctb, which makes me angry aswell because i couldn't muster the courage to use more accessible and direct methods.

How do you cope with the wait when nothing else matters ?

It's hell. It's almost been two months waiting as first time ordered it got lost in origin country and the second time ordered it is not seeming that it will make it out of the origin country to me again. The toll it has and is taking on me is insane.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand finding it so torturous to suffer in this existence, I hope you find freedom from suffering.