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louboutinsuicide

louboutinsuicide

i don wanna die i jus dk how 2 live
Dec 30, 2025
27
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being left by a person who was taking care of everything for me. he lifted me out of the mentality that i have to sell myself again to afford stress free living.

i will have to take care of 1000 rent and 100 pills and i want to learn to drive and i want to settle 3k in debt from college. not to mention bad bulimic habit. i'm aiming at jobs that pay 15-16 an hour. 2400 a month if im actually able to survive agonizing 40 hour work week. what the FUCK?! how do people do this. how am i expected to not try for easy 400/hr sw again. my bf makes minimum 1.5k a week. and he's leaving. what the fuck is going on
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

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Apr 10, 2025
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Hopefully the bulimia can be sorted... I watched an intervention show where someone had bulimia, did sw, and after the intervention stopped both.

Ideas (hope they help but idk how helpful they can be):
  • There are FIFO (fly in fly out) jobs that pay well, and other jobs that pay more reasonable wages... tho I've not done much job searching yet.
  • If one has family that feels ok to return to, one can try moving back in with them (as for me, I've not moved out yet)
  • (Oops, just read other posts and realise that this is less likely to apply): If one is on pills that feel undesirable (vs on pills that help) one may also be able to contact their doctor for a tapering off plan. (while I'm not on any long term medication at time of post, I can't guarantee that won't change)
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timf

Enlightened
Mar 26, 2020
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It might sound a little odd, but you could consider walking into a police station and ask for information about jobs, cheaper places to live, social services that might help, etc. They often either know about such things themselves or know people who do. Another resource is church secretaries.

You don't have to know if you know people who know.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,137
Idk maybe resilience or a sense of hope but honeslty idk.

Just existing just plain and simple, wishing things can change if I work hard enought, help financially, be there, clean cook whatever is not enough.

Hell I dont have my license yet (ik lame and Im 22) Im afraid of driving, yet ik I have to overcome it since is a necessity in life.

The best thing now is hold my job, do as Im told and thats that. As long my mother os ina good mood and doesnt go berserk on us.

I just try to be busy so days past, wake up, clean or laundry go to work, workout, sleep repeat also counting groceries, meds, appointments and other necessities.

Maybe idk If I need to get out more or maybe im doing something wrong here but alas at the end of the day feeling ef dread for a mee day is the same.
 
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EmptyBottle

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Apr 10, 2025
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Idk maybe resilience or a sense of hope but honeslty idk.

Just existing just plain and simple, wishing things can change if I work hard enought, help financially, be there, clean cook whatever is not enough.

Hell I dont have my license yet (ik lame and Im 22) Im afraid of driving, yet ik I have to overcome it since is a necessity in life.

The best thing now is hold my job, do as Im told and thats that. As long my mother os ina good mood and doesnt go berserk on us.

I just try to be busy so days past, wake up, clean or laundry go to work, workout, sleep repeat also counting groceries, meds, appointments and other necessities.

Maybe idk If I need to get out more or maybe im doing something wrong here but alas at the end of the day feeling ef dread for a mee day is the same.
I also don't have my license at 21, tho Australian public transport is reasonable.

Cool that u have a job, I'm studying Bachelor of IT and am yet to even apply for an IT job.

If only the best of both worlds could be combined into both of us (eg combining reasonable jobs with feeling reasonable)
 
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