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Sleepdrifter

Student
Jun 22, 2020
151
I've faced a lot of adversary over the last few years but also a few wins. When I score a victory it takes a lot of time, a lot of effort and definitely some luck. But instead of celebrating I don't just downplay it. I mess with it, play mind games, torture myself with it. I employ it to feel more helpless and worthless than ever. I'll fight every bit of positivity. It's really miserable to be this way. So why am I doing this to myself. What is motivating me to mess myself up like this. Especially when I'm doing better?
 
BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,828
I write thoughts down and get clear about if they're unnecessary and harmful. Then I'm more likely to discard them in the future. The more you trust your judgement here, the better.
 
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Banshee

Student
Oct 25, 2021
154
I think if there was an exact answer we all wouldn't be here hurting so badly.
 

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