Help how do i make it through college without ctb?

[bloodfiend]

i'm a senior. my freshman year i failed a core class and was planning on ending it until my parents talked me down. i have never been a good student and am just barely hanging on. i procrastinate on assignments, avoid my professors, sleep through morning classes, and just generally hate the school structure. the more i think about it, the more i realize i never would have gone on this track if the people around me didn't push me into it. i know that things will get better when i'm out of here, but i still have the whole school year left. i'm already behind on everything. what do i do? i have meds and a therapist. i don't know why i can't talk about this with him... i guess i'm afraid i'll get sent to a mental hospital or something.

 

[Irisse]

Congratulations on reaching your senior year! You've come this far, so what's one more year left? What helped me is starting a new tv show/anime on my first day and then I progress as the tv show/anime does. In my case I watched one episode of a tv show or two episodes of an anime a day, depending on the length. You don't have to be an excellent student, you just need to pass. Maybe journaling might help also? When you pass an exam, reward yourself with something. How are your classmates? Do you have any friends to motivate you?

 

[Cristian]

i have meds and a therapist. i don't know why i can't talk about this with him... i guess i'm afraid i'll get sent to a mental hospital or something.

There are some things you can safely say to him, and some things you can't. (E.g. Don't say "I have a plan to CTB.")

I'd encourage you to learn more (and maybe start a thread specifically on that question.)

 

[amerie]

Just aim for like a 3.0-2.5 and lie on your resume once you graduate

 

[bloodfiend]

wow, first of all thanks everyone for the responses. i've never had a community actually listen and give such thoughtful advice before.

Congratulations on reaching your senior year! You've come this far, so what's one more year left? What helped me is starting a new tv show/anime on my first day and then I progress as the tv show/anime does. In my case I watched one episode of a tv show or two episodes of an anime a day, depending on the length. You don't have to be an excellent student, you just need to pass. Maybe journaling might help also? When you pass an exam, reward yourself with something. How are your classmates? Do you have any friends to motivate you?

i like the idea of connecting shows to progress. i actually made a shortlist of anime over the summer that i'd like to watch. if you have any recommendations, hit me :3 rn i'd like to start utena or lain soon, but i always love checking out stuff people like. i've never really consistently journelled, but i could try again... could work. my classmates are fine. honestly, i don't have trouble getting along with people, but i only have one or two close friends, and i'm not sure if they would "get" it.

There are some things you can safely say to him, and some things you can't. (E.g. Don't say "I have a plan to CTB.")

yeah, it just sucks not being honest with the person whose job it is to help me. maybe i'll try to bring up the increased depression without specifying anything about planning to ctb.

Just aim for like a 3.0-2.5 and lie on your resume once you graduate

lol fair enough. c's get degrees. my resume is honestly pretty solid if we ignore the academics... i really believe that college is the main thing holding me back rn.
thanks for the responses. i hope the format of multi-replying works alright.