How do I deal with my partner when I'm going to kill myself

[decentraleyes]

I don't want to go into too much detail because I'm afraid someone I know may see this, I've been planning to ctb for a long time and I'm most likely going to do it pretty soon because I'm really at my wits end with my living conditions

I have talked to my (long-distance) partner about my plans and obviously they don't want to see me go, we've known each other for a long time and were planning to move in together in the future but I honestly don't see it as feasible given my situation and family and I really can't do this anymore for that long
I really don't want them to be devastated by my (admittedly selfish) choice, but it is final and i just want to soften the blow, I don't want them to think it was their fault or that they could have done something better to prevent it. I don't know if leaving a note afterwards is enough and I wouldn't even know what to write in it
Maybe some of you are in similar situations, I would like to hear what you would do

Sorry about the quality of this post, I'm not really sure why I'm even writing this

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

No worries, mate! Noticed you're new here as well so welcome! But to the point- I haven't exactly had an experience like this, but ctb always affects a person's partner most. I'm not exactly sure what you could do, but talking to them about it could help? I'm don't know what your specific reasons are, but just bringing it up could spark a conversation that could uncover more things than you'd think. I'm sorry I can't help you more, mate. Wishing you the best.