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greg ! :3

greg ! :3

Student
Apr 7, 2024
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wow, tomorrow is the day! the day ill finally ctb and be free of this bullshit. i hate almost everyone in my life, so i wont miss most of the people i know. well, i guess this is a happy ending for me! this is quite scary, but i NEED to be free. i am writing a diary for my final days.
 
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karmaisabitch

karmaisabitch

Mage
Mar 25, 2024
570
wow, tomorrow is the day! the day ill finally ctb and be free of this bullshit. i hate almost everyone in my life, so i wont miss most of the people i know. well, i guess this is a happy ending for me! this is quite scary, but i NEED to be free. i am writing a diary for my final days.
I'm happy for you! What's your method? I'm not staying any longer I just have to go
 
falling_snow

falling_snow

Mage
Aug 9, 2023
527
Is it hard to do that? Like where one should put the rope I know I can't find area in my house
I am using my wardrobe (it has a metal bar)
wow, tomorrow is the day! the day ill finally ctb and be free of this bullshit. i hate almost everyone in my life, so i wont miss most of the people i know. well, i guess this is a happy ending for me! this is quite scary, but i NEED to be free. i am writing a diary for my final days.
CONGRATS!!!!! I will be ctb in a similar method probably this week. Just have to find the right moment. I don't think I will make much noise (I'm taping my mouth just in case) I'm sorry that you hated almost everyone in your life, but may you find peace in the other side! Good luck!!!
 
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karmaisabitch

karmaisabitch

Mage
Mar 25, 2024
570
I am using my wardrobe (it has a metal bar)

CONGRATS!!!!! I will be ctb in a similar method probably this week. Just have to find the right moment. I don't think I will make much noise (I'm taping my mouth just in case) I'm sorry that you hated almost everyone in your life, but may you find peace in the other side! Good luck!!!
Are you taking something to calm you down or you're just strong? Just to think about this method my hands start shaking
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best of luck.
 
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shantyizlit

shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
189
im also very hype for my ctb, mostly because I have saved up a decent amount of money that I will all splurge on hard drugs on the last few days before going out, but also just leaving this place seems so awesome, the mystery; where do I go?!
 
falling_snow

falling_snow

Mage
Aug 9, 2023
527
Are you taking something to calm you down or you're just strong? Just to think about this method my hands start shaking
I am very happy with death, it is like an old friend to me. I am not strong (quite the opposite, I am pretty much a coward and weak), but it is familiarity that gives me comfort. I have no attachment to life, I wish for the end. The method is quite brutal, but if done correctly, in 30 seconds everything should be alright.

If you really need it, benzos (whoch I think you don't have), alcohol or others might help. But being happy with the end and being more or less satisfied with your life that you "leave" are generally the best ways to leave the fear for death.
 
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Mar 25, 2024
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I am very happy with death, it is like an old friend to me. I am not strong (quite the opposite, I am pretty much a coward and weak), but it is familiarity that gives me comfort. I have no attachment to life, I wish for the end. The method is quite brutal, but if done correctly, in 30 seconds everything should be alright.

If you really need it, benzos (whoch I think you don't have), alcohol or others might help. But being happy with the end and being more or less satisfied with your life that you "leave" are generally the best ways to leave the fear for death.
I feel you I'm the same after I lost my son I basically have nothing left in life but I need to just do it I guess I'm not scared from pain I just don't want to change my mind last minute
 
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greg ! :3

greg ! :3

Student
Apr 7, 2024
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I am using my wardrobe (it has a metal bar)

CONGRATS!!!!! I will be ctb in a similar method probably this week. Just have to find the right moment. I don't think I will make much noise (I'm taping my mouth just in case) I'm sorry that you hated almost everyone in your life, but may you find peace in the other side! Good luck!!!
Thanks!
 
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