Holy Fuck

[Nem]

I'm at work right now and I am feeling so shitty it's unbelievable. I have so many regrets it's endless, I basically have ruined my life by being with a control freak ex and taking dangerous meds prescribed by a fucking retard dr. I don't know what to do, suicide is the only way to go for myself, cannot hang on much longer. I am so sorry that I ever took any meds, the coworker that gave me some Valium helped get me back on shitty meds and my dr nearly killed me with absolutely dangerous combos of meds. What a fucking joke, my ex showed red flags at the start and I ignored them only to pay with my life later on. I'm a fucking retard!

 

[Dawn0071111]

I hear you... we all have needs, for companionship for security for comfort.... and somehow no matter what we try we find ourselves in painful situations and with toxic people.... your doing the best you can... I'm a total hypocrite for saying this to you but try to be easier on yourself and realize that you want love just like everybody else.... you don't want a suffering being pain just like anyone else even your toxic controlling EX..... our needs are legitimate but sometimes it just drives us to places where we end up being in more pain.... the longer I'm on this form the more I realize most of us aren't nearly as f***** up as we think we are....

Huggzzz

 

[thx1138]

So sorry you're feeling this way Nem. You deserve better. Yeah, doctors can be so shitty but in truth the whole system is corrupt. Psychiatry is fucked up beyond repair and truly huge changes would need to be made for things to become better. But that is out of our control. Hopefully now you have that ex out of your life. Don't blame yourself for what happened. It's not your fault. If it's possible, take some time off work and spend it with people who are actually close to you and who care.

 

[Nem]

Thanks for the thoughtful replies! My sleep is horribly affected by what happened to me and my mild bipolar issue has gotten right out of control ever since I had the reaction to meds. I feel just out of it and unfortunately I can't take time off of work since I am right near bankruptcy, things are really bad
Peace/hugs

 

[The-end-is-here]

I'm at work right now and I am feeling so shitty it's unbelievable. I have so many regrets it's endless, I basically have ruined my life by being with a control freak ex and taking dangerous meds prescribed by a fucking retard dr. I don't know what to do, suicide is the only way to go for myself, cannot hang on much longer. I am so sorry that I ever took any meds, the coworker that gave me some Valium helped get me back on shitty meds and my dr nearly killed me with absolutely dangerous combos of meds. What a fucking joke, my ex showed red flags at the start and I ignored them only to pay with my life later on. I'm a fucking retard!

Sorry man. Meds ruined me too. Also constant regret about it. Now it's too late.

 

[Nem]

Sorry man. Meds ruined me too. Also constant regret about it. Now it's too late.

Sorry to hear that, it's really hard to not regret taking those shitty pills
Peace/hugs