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used_and_abused

used_and_abused

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Jan 27, 2025
44
I'm tired of hurting & disappointing the people i love.

I felt an opioid near death experience and it painless it just felt like i went sleep. I feel bad for putting my family through seeing me in my overdose state :(

I planning the same thing but intentionally this time.. But i live with people so i cant do it here or ill be revived.

Should i rent a motel or hotel? Will housekeeping walk in on me? I don't to be revived this time. I don't deserve to live, i live in constant guilt and shame and i keep fucking up.

Should i would write a suicide note?
 
CesiumBullet

CesiumBullet

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May 7, 2025
26
If you're tired of hurting and disappointing the people you love, this isn't going to make it any better.

But, if you rent a hotel, you can put a do not disturb sign on the doorknob and lock the door. You can also put a letter just in the crack of the door on the floor telling the staff not to come in, and to call the police. That way they don't have to be traumatized when they see the letter.

But yeah if you have family that loves you this would be the ultimate irredeemable fuck-up.
 
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used_and_abused

used_and_abused

Member
Jan 27, 2025
44
If you're tired of hurting and disappointing the people you love, this isn't going to make it any better.

But, if you rent a hotel, you can put a do not disturb sign on the doorknob and lock the door. You can also put a letter just in the crack of the door on the floor telling the staff not to come in, and to call the police. That way they don't have to be traumatized when they see the letter.

But yeah if you have family that loves you this would be the ultimate irredeemable fuck-up.
Thanks for trying to help, I think it would make it better, they love me but i keep doing the wrong things.

Their life will be much simpler without me.
I feel guilty for being alive, there are way more people that deserve to live not me. I'm not even old enough to drink and i'm already burnt out of life
 

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