Hi folks. Thank you for including me in this community. I've been reading posts here for months, never brave enough to register and contribute until now.
Quick summary. I'm in my 40s, male, never had a serious relationship or close friends and not really that close to family. I've been alone all my life, lived alone for over 18years, and been relatively content being by myself. Fairly good career, I don't worry about money at the moment. It feels like I've been living a life to work and please others. I'm tired of it.
I've had suicidal thoughts since I was 14, I've never spoken to anyone about it. This is the first time I'm even writing about it. I don't even think anyone suspects I feel this way.
I live in the UK. I've decided my time to leave is soon. I'll never have a family of my own, and I don't think aging further and living in the world as it is is for me. I've been reading posts about SN methods for a while and acquired 500g very easily online through what seems like a legit seller from Europe within 2 weeks (I will not share details, but I'm surprised how easy it was to obtain). I've been staring at the bottle for the last few hours as this could really be it for me, the reality is setting in. I want to test it first, sort some affairs and make a plan. I think I have 6months max. Thank you for having me here, I hope to contribute here in the best way I can in that time.
Quick summary. I'm in my 40s, male, never had a serious relationship or close friends and not really that close to family. I've been alone all my life, lived alone for over 18years, and been relatively content being by myself. Fairly good career, I don't worry about money at the moment. It feels like I've been living a life to work and please others. I'm tired of it.
I've had suicidal thoughts since I was 14, I've never spoken to anyone about it. This is the first time I'm even writing about it. I don't even think anyone suspects I feel this way.
I live in the UK. I've decided my time to leave is soon. I'll never have a family of my own, and I don't think aging further and living in the world as it is is for me. I've been reading posts about SN methods for a while and acquired 500g very easily online through what seems like a legit seller from Europe within 2 weeks (I will not share details, but I'm surprised how easy it was to obtain). I've been staring at the bottle for the last few hours as this could really be it for me, the reality is setting in. I want to test it first, sort some affairs and make a plan. I think I have 6months max. Thank you for having me here, I hope to contribute here in the best way I can in that time.
hello and welcome to sasu
