Have a set future plan to ctb but feeling impulsive

[Jen0804]

How do you deal with feeling impulsive to ctb sooner?
I'm really effing tired and upset today and it's taking a hell of a lot for me to stop myself just getting it done

Pushed to my limits and at the end of my rope *sighs*

 

[metalchic_74]

I feel the same I absolutely dread waking up and still being here on this earth. My issue is I'm never alone. My method is hanging. I thought about doing it at night but afraid I will get caught it make too much noise. It's hard to plan when you only have pockets of time to yourself.

 

[lymbo]

I feel the same I absolutely dread waking up and still being here on this earth. My issue is I'm never alone. My method is hanging. I thought about doing it at night but afraid I will get caught it make too much noise. It's hard to plan when you only have pockets of time to yourself.

may you share the reason u want to ctb ?

 

[metalchic_74]

may you share the reason u want to ctb ?

Severe depression I tried so many medications none have helped

 

[lymbo]

Severe depression I tried so many medications none have helped

ys there exact reason for your depressyon ? trauma? abuse ? money?

 

[Onomotopoeia]

ys there exact reason for your depressyon ? trauma? abuse ? money?

That's thing so many do not get about depression, there does not have to be a reason, and often there is not one

OT: I have sort of the opposite problem. I'm not nearly impulsive enough. To much planning and not enough acting. I read a statistic that often it's the impulse suicides that succeed. Which I always thought was kind of odd tbh

 

[hatelife]

im impulsive, but SN takes at least 4 hours to plan before fast, I just ate now but feeling like I could do it now, but thats the bad stuff about this when u start planning like I did yesterday was gonna be my day but I got anxiety a night so stopped it

 

[noctiva]

im impulsive, but SN takes at least 4 hours to plan before fast, I just ate now but feeling like I could do it now, but thats the bad stuff about this when u start planning like I did yesterday was gonna be my day but I got anxiety a night so stopped it

I'm very similar there, I am ready but the act itself must be kind of spontaneous, as in 'I feel ready now', rather than 'I think I'm okay with it in 48h?'. So every time I eat I calculate that I now need to not eat for 8 hours before I can take the meto dose... SI is a funny creature living inside us all.

 

[drake4871]

I've been kinda impulsive lately and maybe todays that day, maybe it isn't. I don't exactly have a future date just like a range of "Less than 4 months" for example