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vanilladust

vanilladust

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Nov 22, 2023
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Happy thanksgiving, I'm thinking I might CTB today. I'm gonna choose to stay home. I don't want to see family. I don't care anymore. I'm gonna make a video on YouTube and maybe leave some notes If I go through with this. I don't think I have the products for a peaceful and painless death. So my only option would really be to hang myself. Doubt I'll have the courage. God I wanna die so bad.
Update: Self-harmed this morning. No longer 5 years clean.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I really wish it's not so difficult to finally be free from this existence but anyway best wishes, it's certainly very much understandable just wanting to be gone.
 
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vanilladust

vanilladust

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I really wish it's not so difficult to finally be free from this existence but anyway best wishes, it's certainly very much understandable just wanting to be gone.
I'm scared to die. I think I'd feel bad for my parents cause I actually love them but also being in pain. Or not having the chance to come back.
 
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