Venting Happy About This One

[Unsure and Useless]

I'm experiencing, as the kids call it, "The Surge". You know, when thinking about/planning/executing your CTB makes you feel a rush of energy? Yeah, that

If I don't get into medical school, I'm gonna CTB. Full stop. I need to get my hands on SN, antiemetics, and (ideally) benzos, but that's the plan! Yep. Probably before that, I'm gonna buy some boba for myself; maybe some ice cream and a bean and cheese taco. Otherwise, a simple McMuffin is also good for me

This is gonna be so cringe when I look back on this, but right now, this feels like peak gambling

Win? Medical school

Lose? CTB by SN

Arguably, winning would be CTB, but honestly, the work to find a reputable SN source in addition to the fact that I'd be leaving a bunch of friends behind are just not it at the moment (Yes, I know about DSL on Y; I just can't find it)

Man, where should I even CTB? I can't do it at home since I live with family, but the city is so crowded. I'll probably have to book a hotel room, so researching how to prepare my room for a corpse will be necessary

Anyways, yeah, I'm just feeling really happy at the idea of getting my ticket and jumping on the bus

 

[LettinGooo]

Some plastic to protect the mattress if you don't fast before hand in case yknow leave a mess maybe.

Other than that hotels usually enforce cleaners checking the room once every few days now just in case someone CTB etc.

Maybe a delayed email to the police, hotel or someone warning them that you have passed.