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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

Student
Apr 17, 2023
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I really wanted to die inside but my only choice would be from my stairs banister and i hate the thought of my parents coming home and opening the door to see me dead right there so my next best choice is hanging outside which i really didnt want to do im worried about being able to find something to kick as a replacement for a chair i feel like itd be weird to bring something with me so ill try find something, i have an idea for what tree to use i just havent been to it in a while so ill need to see if its still climbable and stuff. Just any advice is appreciated i know evelyn made a post about trees but i cant find it now so the knly other one ive found is the guide to tree hanging from an expert or whatever its called.
 
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Shiitake

Shiitake

Student
Nov 29, 2025
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I dont know if this is correct advice,
But maybe you could do it remote enough that the cops arrive an hour late or more, so not some happy dog walker discovers you instead,
this will be highly critiqued due to the risk of being found and given brain damage
 
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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

Student
Apr 17, 2023
155
I dont know if this is correct advice,
But maybe you could do it remote enough that the cops arrive an hour late or more, so not some happy dog walker discovers you instead,
this will be highly critiqued due to the risk of being found and given brain damage
Yeah I've considered messaging my neighbour a pin of my location set for about 3 hours later so he could contact police and no one else finds me, it should be okay generally though its a big woodland with set trails which i wont be on and if i set it so its raining the next day i can avoid traumatising others more
 
SadGirl

SadGirl

Arcanist
Mar 24, 2019
465
Yeah I've considered messaging my neighbour a pin of my location set for about 3 hours later so he could contact police and no one else finds me, it should be okay generally though its a big woodland with set trails which i wont be on and if i set it so its raining the next day i can avoid traumatising others more
Look I've tried hanging about 4 times, the last one I did at the back of the house, with a small ladder to open and close and a rope. My mother found me almost unconscious and I was admitted to a psychiatric clinic. If you are really sure of it, do it where no one will find you. If you want another piece of advice, use medicine or drink alcohol to "make it easier" believe me, it's hard to hang yourself. I hope you are happy anywhere, hugs.
 
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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

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Apr 17, 2023
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Look I've tried hanging about 4 times, the last one I did at the back of the house, with a small ladder to open and close and a rope. My mother found me almost unconscious and I was admitted to a psychiatric clinic. If you are really sure of it, do it where no one will find you. If you want another piece of advice, use medicine or drink alcohol to "make it easier" believe me, it's hard to hang yourself. I hope you are happy anywhere, hugs.
Thank you ive had 5 hanging attempts at this point so i do feel prepared in all that i can now just step off the chair with no struggle lol, ill be using ket again this time as i find it helps the most. Ill be in the woods off trail at night so i should be good i wont get found in time to "save" me
 
SadGirl

SadGirl

Arcanist
Mar 24, 2019
465
Thank you ive had 5 hanging attempts at this point so i do feel prepared in all that i can now just step off the chair with no struggle lol, ill be using ket again this time as i find it helps the most. Ill be in the woods off trail at night so i should be good i wont get found in time to "save" me
Ketamine? I was addicted, I still like to use it sometimes when I can, I'm addicted and my mom gets on my toes. Sometimes I think of CTB hanged, but something inside me still has hope that something good will happen, and I don't feel brave either. But I hope it works out if I'm sure.
 
Cepheuss

Cepheuss

Student
Apr 17, 2023
155
Ketamine? I was addicted, I still like to use it sometimes when I can, I'm addicted and my mom gets on my toes. Sometimes I think of CTB hanged, but something inside me still has hope that something good will happen, and I don't feel brave either. But I hope it works out if I'm sure.
Yeah i used to be addicted too i decided to pick some up in april in time for my attempt not im back on it after being sober since jan 2025 😓
I find it really helps lower my si i wasnt scared in the slightest last time
 
SadGirl

SadGirl

Arcanist
Mar 24, 2019
465
Yeah i used to be addicted too i decided to pick some up in april in time for my attempt not im back on it after being sober since jan 2025 😓
I find it really helps lower my si i wasnt scared in the slightest last time
I think you're going to have to use a good amount of ketamine to get numb and dissociated.
 
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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

Student
Apr 17, 2023
155
I think you're going to have to use a good amount of ketamine to get numb and dissociated.
Yeah its back to taking my money lol ill probably use about half a gram on my next attempt as my tolerance is still low as ive only been back on it about a month
 

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