Hallucinating

[Avicii]

Fucking scared shitless been struggling to sleep all night just managed to drift wheh woken by a loud noise and 4 lads standing there pointing guns I was either dreaming it or woke and saw it as it was my exact living room in the dark weirdly they were pointing their guns sideways !! If I'm going to have an hallucination why not just have the guns all pointing at me ?? I screamed no and no sooner did I wake and scream they fsddd away - thst was me up checking every door window usually I'm lax - been going through a bit of crazy shit in real life at moment no hallucinations but I googled visual hallucinations and it kept coming up schizophrenia which is frightening even though so far it's iust been the one off!! I did get sedated in hospital two months back for a panic attack was glad to be sedated on the night really thought I was dying woke the next day left the hospital and went to bed - god I loved they sedated me bit I don't know what kind of fucjed up shit they give you bit for thst day and the next whenever I closed my eyes I just got fldjing images rapidly changing of random people the Queen Kermit the frog fucking all kinds flash flash flash through the images

On s suicide note suffering some crazy shit here can't eveb explain as I haven't a fucking clue what is happening to me bit walked along a river bank today and god thought one jump will end this shit but so far have decided to keep fighting think it's going to get me soon though if things don't get better quick