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Which one would you chose to CTB & comment why PLUS the choice most easily accessible to u currently


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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
936
I'm just trying to connect with the users who feel like participating in this.

I personally want to go by way of the gun. I feel like im at a point where I just want it to be quick and final. I don't want to be be allowed to think or feel. I just want to be gone. I know that the success rate is variable and I think if I do it right i'll be ok.

The method most at hand though seems to be hanging because you can use almost anything to do it. But I dont want to go like that. Eyes popping out of my head and neck stretched out.

The only drug I think I could find is fentynal and I hear its deadly but I dont think I would feel comfortable trusting a random source without knowing for sure its the kind that can end you with just a dab.
 
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Mira Gaga

Mira Gaga

I'm not okay, but it's okay.
Oct 16, 2025
59
I would do either guns or drugs, Guns because I've been through some shit, and I don't want the people who did this to me to see my face again. I'd probably go to some dingy dive bar and get blackout drunk, then do it.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,424
Hanging on all counts. No one could ever pass a law to outlaw rope. Rope is easy to come by, and there are plenty of anchor points in the world.
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
220
Gun is probably the best if you know how to hit the spot and blackout instantly. Hanging is also solid, it's painful, but quick and effective.
 
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Sardinha

Sardinha

I love jellyfishes
Dec 17, 2025
19
honestly, I'd go with the gun. it's the quickest and most certain, as long as u mind the angle. the rope is a solid option, but suffocation... that's a horrible way to go. the drug you mentioned, I'm not familiar with it, so I can't really say.....

but you know, if I could choose another option?? I'd probably jump. from somewhere sooo high, somewhere with a ZERO percent survival rate. there's something almost beautiful about the fall being the last thing u feel. I find that thought weirdly appealing, to be honest
 
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Nihilisticstatic

Nihilisticstatic

Static
Aug 6, 2023
68
Drugs,
Id do a catheter, take some ketamine to be calm and at ease, then Ill use premade syringes to push the drugs, without having to pierce my skin multiple times (catheter).
The mix id use is really basic,

Fentanyl + alcohol + benzodiazepines (alprazolam),
+ A medication that causes a heart attack as a safe measure in case respiratory failure isnt enough.

drugs are most accessible and most peaceful for others + myself.
 
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girlsboysthems

girlsboysthems

no i dont have a gun
Dec 19, 2022
456
i have it all ready, going with drugs but hanging is ofcourse the most effective and painless. i always recommend hanging.
 
moldyara2002

moldyara2002

Member
Nov 8, 2025
24
Gun. I have one. It seems easy. Hopefully I don't jinx myself. The planning and preparing is the most difficult part right now
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

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May 5, 2022
936
honestly, I'd go with the gun. it's the quickest and most certain, as long as u mind the angle. the rope is a solid option, but suffocation... that's a horrible way to go. the drug you mentioned, I'm not familiar with it, so I can't really say.....

but you know, if I could choose another option?? I'd probably jump. from somewhere sooo high, somewhere with a ZERO percent survival rate. there's something almost beautiful about the fall being the last thing u feel. I find that thought weirdly appealing, to be honest
Interesting. Maybe a sky diving to death? But do you think you would be screaming or quiet?
 
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Sardinha

Sardinha

I love jellyfishes
Dec 17, 2025
19
I think if i were screaming, I wouldn't have time to think of anything mid-air. maybe... right there in that moment during the fall I would think of something that would make me end it all perfectly… or maybe not!! maybe I wouldn't even be able to think, or I would think something silly heh

I've seen both a few times online, and when someone falls in silence it's much more beautiful than someone screaming
 
slowlydying2mrrw

slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
67
I tried hanging, not fast enough. I tried drugs and the only successful drug mixture having a high success rate is opiates, benzos, and alcohol. Risk of getting a drug charge is good if someone calls the cops.

I would say gun, because the success rate is the highest. The only thing holding me back is surviving and being a vegetable for my living days.... :/
Interesting. Maybe a sky diving to death? But do you think you would be screaming or quiet?
Why would you wear a parachute if you are suicidal? People who skydive aren't suicidal when falling, they are just nuts lol.
honestly, I'd go with the gun. it's the quickest and most certain, as long as u mind the angle. the rope is a solid option, but suffocation... that's a horrible way to go. the drug you mentioned, I'm not familiar with it, so I can't really say.....

but you know, if I could choose another option?? I'd probably jump. from somewhere sooo high, somewhere with a ZERO percent survival rate. there's something almost beautiful about the fall being the last thing u feel. I find that thought weirdly appealing, to be honest
I don't think all fall attempts are near perfect survival rate. There was a flight attendant who was a sole survivor of a plane accident and she fell 33,000 feet. And lived :)
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
524
I tried hanging, not fast enough. I tried drugs and the only successful drug mixture having a high success rate is opiates, benzos, and alcohol. Risk of getting a drug charge is good if someone calls the cops.

I would say gun, because the success rate is the highest. The only thing holding me back is surviving and being a vegetable for my living days.... :/

Why would you wear a parachute if you are suicidal? People who skydive aren't suicidal when falling, they are just nuts lol.

I don't think all fall attempts are near perfect survival rate. There was a flight attendant who was a sole survivor of a plane accident and she fell 33,000 feet. And lived :)
I've never heard of someone dying from benzos, is that possible ?
 
slowlydying2mrrw

slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
67
I've never heard of someone dying from benzos, is that possible ?
Not benzos alone..... It's a cocktail.... Benzos and opiates mixed with alcohol shut down your respiratory system and will cause respiratory distress. The cocktail is slowly shutting down your ability to breathe, so essentially suffocate in your sleep. They do put warnings of this when they prescribe either of the two and because of how controlled both substances are, most medical professionals will not even prescribe you one if you are taking the other.

I agree, benzos alone won't do it. I've tried. :/
I don't recommend because you are just wasting a big supply to pass out or throw it all up.
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
524
Not benzos alone..... It's a cocktail.... Benzos and opiates mixed with alcohol shut down your respiratory system and will cause respiratory distress. The cocktail is slowly shutting down your ability to breathe, so essentially suffocate in your sleep. They do put warnings of this when they prescribe either of the two and because of how controlled both substances are, most medical professionals will not even prescribe you one if you are taking the other.

I agree, benzos alone won't do it. I've tried. :/
I don't recommend because you are just wasting a big supply to pass out or throw it all up.
Ah got it. Yeah, I got screwed by benzos unintentionally, I suffer from hypoxia as a result but never died lol. I wish though.

Phenobarbital seem more potent. I think that's what Marilyn Monroe used ?
 
VoidButterfly

VoidButterfly

Flitterby
May 17, 2025
146
I'd choose drugs if I knew it'd work. Shooting yourself or hanging yourself are such very unnatural and sudden things, whereas taking medication is something I do every day which I'm accustomed to and which doesn't scare me.
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
67
Ah got it. Yeah, I got screwed by benzos unintentionally, I suffer from hypoxia as a result but never died lol. I wish though.

Phenobarbital seem more potent. I think that's what Marilyn Monroe used ?
I think she was using it for medicinal purposes. In the 50's and 60s, drugs were the wild wild west. Even LSD was an accidental creation based on curiosity. :P
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,215
I have hanging available right now. Could buy a gun today. Some sort of reckoning is coming. I voted drugs because ideally you take something and die it's easy. But it won't be how I go. No access. Just seems ideal.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,090
I voted hanging, but only because I'm scared to buy a gun for some reason.

Hanging has worked for a lot of prominent people, it should be good enough for me.
 
interna

interna

o7 o7 o7 o7
Dec 1, 2025
53
chose gun because its the most lethal. but hanging is the most accessible to me rn.
 
fruitninjamaster

fruitninjamaster

I love the high of choking myself
Dec 21, 2025
74
Jumping, it would feel like magic
 

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