Got canceled on

[woofwag]

I canceled my flight to go back home just to see them. I wanted to see them one last time, and I know they wanted that too. We were going to meet at 6. At 5:44, they say they "have a lot on their mind" and can't talk. I am sure it's bad for them and that they're going through something hard. But so am I. I'm about to fucking kill myself and I just wanted to spend another day with them. I am now leaving on the 7th. And idk how I can even last that long. I want to cancel again, but I think it's too late. This sucks. I suck. I just want to be back with my SN and meto and take it all and fall asleep forever.

I just took 300mg of my Seroquel to fall asleep as fast as I can. I don't want to be awake for anything anymore. I just want to die. I don't even have the energy to hurt myself anymore. I didn't deserve a life like this