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here_for_now

here_for_now

is this by design?
Jan 27, 2025
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Mods please don't ban immediately cause my ctb is tonight or tomorrow depending on what i need. might fail but i doubt it.

I finally have a plan and a way out. I'm tired of being illegally harassed by the powers that be and everything i do be sabatoged.

I wanted to first leave to my home country to find peace but deep down i know the fuckery will only get worse if i attempt so suicide makes sense.

I was living for others my whole life and i don't care anymore.

My method is fentanyl.

I have no friends no gf no one that i can trust no nothing. i'm a just a bum.

I don't have to feel depressed of my brain stem dies. I want to cry everyday.

I'm being illegally harassed subliminally semi regularly by the federal government and they just love to fuck with me.

I've been illegally spied on illegally threatened and treated horribly. They bullied me directly with no mercy.

I realized that it won't ever stop worst part is that everybody thinks i'm crazy so it's like i'm talking to the wall.

I can't wait to fucking die. i have no reason to live. I don't care anymore. I just want to pass away

even if i wasn't being illegally watched and bullied i still have a shitty life.

I have nothing worth living for at all. not one person in this entire world cares about me. it's all transactional.

I have a lot of guilt and regret in this life. but if i can just kill myself it will be worth it.

I live with a chronic condition that gives me a bunch of fucked up health issues.

It doesn't make sense for me to live anymore. I'm done.

I will never find love. I'm am illegally psyclgoically tortured in a basically modern cointelpro program.

i just don't care anymore. it will never stop until i kill myself.
 
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Irisse

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Sep 8, 2025
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I wish that you find what you're looking for, whatever that may be for you, and that your journey is as peaceful and painless as possible.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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Wish you lots of peace <3
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
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I'm sorry you've been through this. To be honest given the thread you made a month ago I believe that what you're experiencing can be alleviated by antipsychotics and I want you to give it a try to seek this path, but I'm not going to judge your decision. Please make sure your fentanyl is genuine. Whatever happens I hope you find peace🫂
 
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$yck

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Oct 23, 2025
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Safe travels, peace be with you 🫂
 
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Mooncry

Mooncry

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Sep 11, 2024
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Nobody thinks you're "crazy," I'm sure most are just recognizing the clear signs of psychotic delusions. I have firsthand experience living with my mom for 16 years who was diagnosed late with schizophrenia. As one of the persons above me said, antipsychotics and therapy would likely help you alleviate things. I know it's hard to get yourself help when you fully believe the things your mind is telling you, and there's only so much that a stranger's words on the internet can do. Whatever happens to you, I wish you the best.
 
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rs929

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Dec 18, 2020
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I'm sorry you've been through this. To be honest given the thread you made a month ago I believe that what you're experiencing can be alleviated by antipsychotics and I want you to give it a try to seek this path, but I'm not going to judge your decision. Please make sure your fentanyl is genuine. Whatever happens I hope you find peace🫂

I second this.
It breaks my soul you've come to this because you might not be seeing the full picture right now and nobody is there to care for you.
Many of the things you've mentioned can be alleviated. You need meds.
I am.concerned but this is SS so shall you decide to go with the fentanyl, I wish you a peaceful departure.
 
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here_for_now

is this by design?
Jan 27, 2025
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method changed unfortunately but ligature strangulation plus hyperventilation i practiced to get the carotids should work and it's free i guess.
 
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