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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
hey guys I'm gonna be drinking SN in a few hours ill try my best to document it here

The reason I'm ctbing is because of mental illnesses chronic illness symptoms thats have all come together and ruined my life and yes I've exhausted all treatment options

I wish it didnt have to end this way but im glad I atleast have an out

I love my family so much I told them im gonna be dying soon and I hope that atleast helps a little I also told people to send them grief resources once im gone im done with my note too

Just wanna say thank u to this community as well im not gonna be sad for the next few hours im gonna watch hangover 1 and pretend to be happy even if im not

I'll start updating as soon as I take meto also pls no one tell me to seek help I dont wanna second guess myself
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
204
Good luck, I wish you a smooth and painless transition, and may you find the peace and serenity you're looking for. Sorry if the question is inappropriate, but I remember your profile picture and that some time ago you took 2 grams of SN because your mother had confiscated it. Was that you, or am I mistaken?
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
624
I hope you find the peace and happiness you clearly deserve...
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
Good luck, I wish you a smooth and painless transition, and may you find the peace and serenity you're looking for. Sorry if the question is inappropriate, but I remember your profile picture and that some time ago you took 2 grams of SN because your mother had confiscated it. Was that you, or am I mistaken?
Nono that was someone else and also thank u so much
I hope you find the peace and happiness you clearly deserve...
Thank u so much
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,815
Every good wish for finding rest, peace and tranquillity.
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Mage
Dec 14, 2023
583
I'm sorry your suffering pushed you this far. I hope you'll find peace in whatever way you choose. Hugs (if you want them)
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
Every good wish for finding rest, peace and tranquillity.
Thank you I keep thinking about my family and how this decision is so sad its so painful I hope i find peace and they recover from the grief that's all I want
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Paragon
Nov 25, 2024
955
Truly sorry that this is where things have led for you. I hope you enjoy the hangover somewhat and that you find calm and peace within. All the best on your journey.
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
thank u so much that means alot (hugs back)
thank u so much that means alot (hugs back)
Hey guys I'm so sorry im not responding and reacting to each message for some reason my internet really slow or its the website I wanna react and reply to some messages but its so slow and when I do reply it gets slower

But im reading each and every message and ill read each and every message from this point on too and I appreciate all of them thank u guys so much ❤
thank u man
Truly sorry that this is where things have led for you. I hope you enjoy the hangover somewhat and that you find calm and peace within. All the best on your journey.
 
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gr33navocad0

Member
May 16, 2025
14
I hope you find rest and peace. Sending you a hug.
 
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Kimlett

Kimlett

Student
Jan 7, 2024
136
I hope you're enjoying the movie and having some peace. Life shouldn't be so hard for some people. I wish I could hug you irl
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Experienced
Mar 12, 2025
266
Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen, ♥
 
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Mary Janex

Mary Janex

Probably dissociated
Apr 2, 2025
65
Hope you find the peace you deserve
 
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Adûnâi

Adûnâi

Little Russian in-cel
Apr 25, 2020
1,203
Smooth sailing!
 
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

Without her I'm just a cheap Louis Krages
Feb 3, 2025
494
The website seems to be very laggy for some reason so don't worry if your messages don't come through. Know that there are people all over the world right know wishing you peace. No worries if you second guess stuff and, remember, methylene blue if you do.

Also, that's a fine movie choice. Loved Mike Tyson on that film!
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
Took painkiller and meto also thank u adunai and Michi I haven't gotten to the mike tyson part yet I'll just watch the clip on yt
 
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Angel of Spades

Angel of Spades

barely keeping it together
May 23, 2023
86
I hope you have a smooth trip there. Sending you much love
 
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Escape Artist

Escape Artist

Artist
Jun 3, 2019
40
Sending hugs and wishing you peace.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,060
I wish you love and peace wherever your path leads you.
 
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onmywaytothebusstop

onmywaytothebusstop

~ Transgirl looking for eternal tranquility ~
Feb 9, 2025
230
Godspeed
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
Mixed 1 sn drink
mixed 2nr one or im mixing it rather
fuck it drinking this bad boy up hopefully it tastes like nesquik
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
520
What ever happens tonight I wish you the best!
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
Feeling cold wanna puke
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,584
It really sounds like you've suffered so much, I hope that you find the peace you search for.
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
204
Are you still here ?
 
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nochesenvela

nochesenvela

just smoking through life
Dec 23, 2023
9
are you still here? i'm so sorry all of your suffering led to this
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod
Jun 2, 2024
2,087
hoping you're at peace. nothing but love to you onward. 🕊️
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,251
Hoping your transition was peaceful and that you are finally at rest.🕯️
 
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Deleted account 549

Deleted account 549

Bipolar | AN
May 16, 2023
30
Rest in peace, I hope the warmth and comfort of pain leaving your body can embrace you. 🕊️
 
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theneverending

theneverending

Member
Oct 27, 2024
49
i hope you found your piece, i see you haven't sent an update in 3 hours so i assume you're either gone or hospitalized now, if you see this, i hope you got done what you wanted. hugs.
 
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