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notevenhere

notevenhere

Ghost Angel
Apr 27, 2023
114
hi, sasu. been a long time coming. i will not take ibuprofen or paracetamol either since my liver and kindey already have issues and taking 1000mg would have bad side effects on my body before i even die.

i heard there's also side effects in meto and antiacids are not needed in the latest pph. my biggest regret is not having benzos. i used to have a stash (i have tourettes and cervical dystonia and rivotril helps with the tics and muscle spasm) but my mother threw it all away and disallowed me to drink anymore after my last attempt last year and i got admitted to a psych ward.

if i fail, I'll do my best to acquire meto this tuesday but my family has control of my meds so it'll take another week or two to stash them.

i'll have my last meal tonight at 8pm, go to sleep at midnight, then drink water after waking up before water fasting until the noon. when the family goes away to do their weekly grocery shopping, I'll prepare my SN drink.

I'll have 3 cups ready. i don't have a digital scale, either. everything feels so scuffed and unplanned but eh, story of my life.

i just wanted to provide an anecdote of someone who will drink sn without any of the items needed. and to see if i will succeed. again, if i do fail— I'll do another attempt two weeks from now with meto, hopefully.

i weight 48kg. I'll do 2 tablespoon in a 500mg cup. x 3

In your stomach there is something called gastric juices, one of the components of this juice is hydrochloric acid (HCL). When SN mixes with HCL, it converts to regular salt (NaCL). There isn't enough HCL in your stomach to convert all the recommended dose, but it will reduce it.

I'm not too confident in this method without the antiacid because I already have kidney issues and if the SN turns into regular salt that just means I'm drinking an ungodly amount of salt and it'll make me develop more kidney stones which fucking sucks. organ failure is the most painful way to go.

if i make it out tomorrow alive without suffering the consequences, I'll update this thread. that's about it, see you all tomorrow.
 
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Kalista

Failed hard to pull the trigger - Now using SN
Feb 5, 2023
458
this might be considered an impulsive attempt which can cause a higher chance of failing, but i still hope you leave just fine.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Sounds a bit impulsive. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I wish you all the best and I hope you find peace. Safe travels and good luck! :heart:🫂
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,060
If you can help it best to avoid an impulsive attempt, and atleast have a digital scale. I hope everything goes well for you. I wish you the best in finding your peace ❤️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,703
I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.
 
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lost_ange1

lost_ange1

An angel who wants to go home..
May 29, 2024
156
All of it sounds a bit risky, but i wish you well and good luck! May you find your peace.
 
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justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

<3
Nov 9, 2023
418
I hope you are sure about your plan, i hope you find peace and wish you the best <3
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,142
wishing you all the best, and don't forget its always ok to reconsider
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
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hi, sasu. been a long time coming. i will not take ibuprofen or paracetamol either since my liver and kindey already have issues and taking 1000mg would have bad side effects on my body before i even die.

i heard there's also side effects in meto and antiacids are not needed in the latest pph. my biggest regret is not having benzos. i used to have a stash (i have tourettes and cervical dystonia and rivotril helps with the tics and muscle spasm) but my mother threw it all away and disallowed me to drink anymore after my last attempt last year and i got admitted to a psych ward.

if i fail, I'll do my best to acquire meto this tuesday but my family has control of my meds so it'll take another week or two to stash them.

i'll have my last meal tonight at 8pm, go to sleep at midnight, then drink water after waking up before water fasting until the noon. when the family goes away to do their weekly grocery shopping, I'll prepare my SN drink.

I'll have 3 cups ready. i don't have a digital scale, either. everything feels so scuffed and unplanned but eh, story of my life.

i just wanted to provide an anecdote of someone who will drink sn without any of the items needed. and to see if i will succeed. again, if i do fail— I'll do another attempt two weeks from now with meto, hopefully.

i weight 48kg. I'll do 2 tablespoon in a 500mg cup. x 3



I'm not too confident in this method without the antiacid because I already have kidney issues and if the SN turns into regular salt that just means I'm drinking an ungodly amount of salt and it'll make me develop more kidney stones which fucking sucks. organ failure is the most painful way to go.

if i make it out tomorrow alive without suffering the consequences, I'll update this thread. that's about it, see you all tomorrow.
I've decided not to take anything either
I do wish you had a scale or a electronic measurement spoon
But as I do for me I'll do for you and be positive
Wish you a speedy painless transition
I'll eat a cupcakes in your honor
If you change your mind or just wait a little bit don't you worry about it
But right now love and light 💜
 
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YosemiteGrrl

When will courage be mine
Dec 17, 2023
217
hi, sasu. been a long time coming. i will not take ibuprofen or paracetamol either since my liver and kindey already have issues and taking 1000mg would have bad side effects on my body before i even die.

i heard there's also side effects in meto and antiacids are not needed in the latest pph. my biggest regret is not having benzos. i used to have a stash (i have tourettes and cervical dystonia and rivotril helps with the tics and muscle spasm) but my mother threw it all away and disallowed me to drink anymore after my last attempt last year and i got admitted to a psych ward.

if i fail, I'll do my best to acquire meto this tuesday but my family has control of my meds so it'll take another week or two to stash them.

i'll have my last meal tonight at 8pm, go to sleep at midnight, then drink water after waking up before water fasting until the noon. when the family goes away to do their weekly grocery shopping, I'll prepare my SN drink.

I'll have 3 cups ready. i don't have a digital scale, either. everything feels so scuffed and unplanned but eh, story of my life.

i just wanted to provide an anecdote of someone who will drink sn without any of the items needed. and to see if i will succeed. again, if i do fail— I'll do another attempt two weeks from now with meto, hopefully.

i weight 48kg. I'll do 2 tablespoon in a 500mg cup. x 3



I'm not too confident in this method without the antiacid because I already have kidney issues and if the SN turns into regular salt that just means I'm drinking an ungodly amount of salt and it'll make me develop more kidney stones which fucking sucks. organ failure is the most painful way to go.

if i make it out tomorrow alive without suffering the consequences, I'll update this thread. that's about it, see you all tomorrow.
Will you be detailing your journey here as you go? Wishing best case scenario....
 
sugarh1gh

sugarh1gh

Death is new departure and beggining of a journey.
May 27, 2024
325
I don't know what time it is for you, but I hope your ride is not painful at all, and wish you luck. May the peace be with you.
 
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LostSoul1965

Mage
Apr 15, 2024
566
Hope OP is in peace whatever they decided.
 
Sakura.

Sakura.

Nienawidzę siebie.
May 1, 2024
107
I didn't expect this attempt to be successful.

I wonder how it ended...
 
Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies. Forever 22.
Apr 25, 2023
1,084
Goodbye friend, see you on the other side.
 

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