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Rainork

Rainork

What a load of baloney
Mar 17, 2023
139
Well, this is it.
I would say I've had a good run but honestly fuck everything about this fucking planet.
I will be taking everything I have as soon as I hit send (8.7g of Venlafaxine) and then I will be leaving my phone behind to walk out to sea.
Here's to hoping I can see it through, I can't deal with this misery anymore.

Thank you to everyone who's contacted me in these last couple of weeks- this world is such a cruel place and it's so sad that you find the kindest souls in such a dark place.
I hope you can all find a spark of joy in your life one way or another.

Much love to you all, thank you again.
Rainork🕊💕
4grams down, honestly underestimated how long it would take to take this many pills😂
 
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idiotmother

Arcanist
Mar 21, 2025
464
I hope things work out for you and that you find peace 💜
 
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Rainork

Rainork

What a load of baloney
Mar 17, 2023
139
All meds taken, to the sea I go🕊
 
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vyvanceandvodka

vyvanceandvodka

hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♡
Jan 7, 2026
186
i'm sorry it's come to this, i hope you find peace :( <3
 
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theDunce

theDunce

Member
Feb 18, 2026
40
I'm sorry as well. SaSu is still here if it's not your time. Otherwise, wishing you all the best.
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
81
I hope you find peace. I'm sorry it has come to this.
 
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anorexiakilledme

Member
Nov 26, 2025
35
I'm so sorry man, I had just read recently your thread on drowning, feels crazy and sad to see people go here. I hope you all the best.
 
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raemysteryO

raemysteryO

𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯
Feb 8, 2026
44
Good luck. Hope you have a swift journey and finally found your peace 🌻
 
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fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
350
I'm so sorry things have been so terrible. This sounds like a difficult and painful way to go and if you haven't done it, I hope you reconsider. Drowning hurts, from what I've read.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,547
I hope you've found peace. Things must have been hard to choose this method specifically, I wish you the best <3
 
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yotaka

明日にはすべてが終るとして
Jan 29, 2026
114
Looking forward to our swim together. All the best to you, friend.
 
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l1ablemistakes

l1ablemistakes

Wasted potential
Feb 16, 2026
185
Thinking of you floating off to sea as I type this… it's surreal. I hope you're okay, however you choose to define okay, and I hope you're at peace.

May the sky above you be beautiful 🌤️🌈
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Student
Jul 27, 2024
196
I can only hope it was quick and painless.
 
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inconclusivesorbet

On my way
Jan 28, 2026
55
Theyre on the way to receive medical attention last i saw
Hope they heal on this journey
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
103
I'm sorry life was so hard on you. I hope you've found peace. Farewell.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,294
I'm sorry you have to go through this. I hope you found peace :heart:
 
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geepeedee

Member
Feb 24, 2026
63
goodbye rainork. i hope it works out for you.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,634
I hope you find the freedom you search for.
 
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