Venting GOD is NOT around. If he is, he’s playing GAMES with me

[itsmeagain]

If you believe, I'm so happy for you.

God doesn't seem to want to talk to me except to mock me.

I don't feel his presence. I go into churches and I feel nothing. Only weird.

My life is playing games with me so bad that I have to believe in either bad luck, or a cruel God.

He's not here.

He isn't helping me.

He left me.

And I never even knew if I believed in the first place.

But if he's out there?

He's owes me an apology.

Because no God would temper the cancers of others, whilst simultaneously letting the holocaust happen

And letting me fall apart.

He's supposed to care about everyone.

What about me?

What about us?

 

[Stan Swiftie]

God doesn't give a shit about anybody but Himself, and maybe those who kiss His ass non-stop.
He curses us with life, with mental illnesses, with wtfe, then expects us to ask for forgiveness for being fucked up, which is how He made us in the first place.
Then sends us to Hell after a life if hell, if we don't follow His rules & kiss His ass.
Fuck God!

 

[jewelxxet]

iTs A tEsT gOd Is JuSt TeStInG hIs MoSt PoWeRfUl SoLdIeRs

 

[L9my]

iTs A tEsT gOd Is JuSt TeStInG hIs MoSt PoWeRfUl SoLdIeRs

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literally this. No seriously wtf God.
someone once told me that we're in this life to struggle and learn, to what end though?

 

[jewelxxet]

someone once told me that we're in this life to struggle and learn, to what end though?

heaven
they think the whole point of this life is to be tested by god to see if you're worthy of heaven before you enter it, and he isnt scared to go all out on some people and be as cruel

honestly i can see how motivating that is if you have a lot of faith, thats enough to keep you going and suffering because you're promised eternity in heaven
but on the other hand for people like me who don't believe in that shit life sucks and its hard to go on

 

[Withered]

I completely agree. I just posted a thread about how I prayed yesterday for a blessing and today the Pope died. Any conclusion drawn from that is a conclusion that'd lead me away from God.

 

[Pale_Rider]

You know I feel the same a lot, but when I read these posts it really makes my ctb attitude recede. I'm always at a loss, but I'm also in a lot of pain, so i hold on. It's really the only reason I'm here probably. I'm drunk so I cant analyze the pain part.
I'll just be honest. I can't reconcile my desire to not be here with Christian belief. That's why I did all my prayers last time as I lay dying. Maybe he brought me back. Maybe I can't. Maybe I already did. Idk. It gets confusing.

 

[ididnotconsent]

The only answer Christian's and others seem to have for our suffering and other unexplainable questions is god works in mysterious ways.

I would understand temporary suffering/sadness to teach a lesson, but to suffer decades on end while your life is at a standstill seems completely pointless.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Well as a catholic suffering is a form or penance. We can appropriately accept our pain here on earth, and save purgatory time ie purification time. Purgatory is where we are purified by fire. Some may be lucky, and see that fire on earth is sometimes how i look at it, but with dissociative disorder I can switch, or just cry that my penalty is to heavy. Seeing how the disorder is gained through being beaten as a child. Becomes really complicated. Do I listen to my pain, or the word. The word of course! Until you are in constant pain of course.
Generally speaking all my personalitys are catholic , but some may catch a special attitude, or maybe just one.