god hates me

[jes7ter]

i cant do anything anymore
i dont put effort into my looks, i dont try to do anything for fun because its pointless, i just sleep and cry
i dont eat because it doesnt bring me any pleasure, i lost 4 kgs in a month because i dont even feel hunger anymore
my friends dont care, even after telling them straight up i wanted to kill myself
im so useless i cant help my dad whos been drunk for 5 days straight
he keeps telling me im a good person which is a lie
i dont deserve to live and i have no reason to
i wanted to wait until finals with ctb but i think im going to do it next week
if it doesnt work i will be miserable and useless forever

 

[telekon]

Birthday? Place? time if you have it.... I will tell you if god hates you/which god hates you
parents? siblings? pm if too personal

 

[purebliss]

Birthday? Place? time if you have it.... I will tell you if god hates you/which god hates you
parents? siblings? pm if too personal

What.
That sounds like a snake oil seller

 

[bruised_reed]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much! :(

 

[telekon]

What.
That sounds like a snake oil seller

you're on a website about committing suicide...what have you got to lose

 

[Manfrotto99]

I don't believe it is God who hates you but you who hates yourself - or more so you really hate your circumstances - and that's totally understandable - your feeling alone, unloved, unsupported, suffering on your own and hopeless to do anything about it - so your looking to find reason to make sense of it all - blaming God for hating you gives you a reason. I'm in the same boat - I dont have answer to help you but I wish that I did x