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Deer_Dairy

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Jan 19, 2026
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Hello you beautiful motherlovers!*

I am finishing my plan, rn.
The planned date is April 7, the day after Easter. I'll take an extra day off; no one will think anything of it.

My wife won't be home, so I'll have almost the whole day to get things in order—like sorting out the stuff I want to throw away, etc.

I have a short list of things I want to take care of:

- bank accounts, pay off debts, send necessary payments
- delete/deactivate social media accounts
- reset devices to factory settings
- throw away unnecessary items
- prepare a "manual" for the things at home that I'm in charge of

Please add whatever you think is missing.

Another thing - I am still struggling with writing meaningful SN. I'd like to explain that this is my and only my resolution of free will. That I am tired of living life like this, wishing for life I know will never come, so I don't want to fake it since it will cause more harm to other people.
But I still feel it sounds like it's somebody else's fault, never mind how I am trying to write it.
Btw, what is important for you to write in SN?

Thank you all.
 
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meddle

meddle

pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
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have you seen this guide? i find it very helpful

and also as i see it: there is no such thing as the perfect note. so you just write down what you think is right. i personally would give others some explaination on why i did this, would try to ease their guilt (although its not possible, they would still feel guilt, i know that), would tell them that there was nothing they could do. i would advise them to seek help from specialists to make it easier to get over their loss
 
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Deer_Dairy

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Jan 19, 2026
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have you seen this guide? i find it very helpful

and also as i see it: there is no such thing as the perfect note. so you just write down what you think is right. i personally would give others some explaination on why i did this, would try to ease their guilt (although its not possible, they would still feel guilt, i know that), would tell them that there was nothing they could do. i would advise them to seek help from specialists to make it easier to get over their loss
I am concerned about my wife. I know she loves me. I must figure out how to ease it to her as much as possible.

My brother will be sad, it will be hard for him, but I am sure he will take it as it is and in few months he will be ok. Another thing is he lives one the other side of the planet.

Rest of the family... I don't care. I have father but he didn't speak to me for 4-5 years. Grandparents from my mothers side are still alive (old af), but tbh I don't care about them.
And that's it. Nobody else except few friends. But I am sure they will take it within weeks since they know there is possibility of this happening.
 
meddle

meddle

pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
354
I am concerned about my wife. I know she loves me. I must figure out how to ease it to her as much as possible.

My brother will be sad, it will be hard for him, but I am sure he will take it as it is and in few months he will be ok. Another thing is he lives one the other side of the planet.

Rest of the family... I don't care. I have father but he didn't speak to me for 4-5 years. Grandparents from my mothers side are still alive (old af), but tbh I don't care about them.
And that's it. Nobody else except few friends. But I am sure they will take it within weeks since they know there is possibility of this happening.
they will definetely be very sad that you are gone and sadly but no note will make them feel better 💔💔💔

sorry for my dumb question, but is your decision final? maybe you could try again? maybe your wife could help you?
 

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