Venting Genuinely don't know how to ctb at this point.

[Marsmia]

Just had another failed hanging attempt today even after getting really drunk due to my goddam gag reflex. I seriously can't hang myself. I keep telling myself that it's the "quickest and easiest" method but it's not. After so many failed attempts my body refuses to cooperate but I hate the potential brain damage I may have caused

Because I live in the UK, Sn/Kn is impossible to find at the moment without someone helping you out but I can't seem to get any support in it.


I tried cutting once and am considering again even though it's said to have a incredibly low percentage rate. I self harm regularly but getting to bone is just too much.

And yeah VSED is a Bitch.

I'm at a complete loss for what to do. I know it's against the rules to help but god I could do with some.

 

[cakedog]

even if it weren't against the rules i don't think anyone would offer very good advice because i don't think there is one
best thing i can do is point you to the resource section i think there must be at least something that can work for you and if you don't find anything i think the only alternative is overcoming your si (easier said than done)
sorry my useless post btw i know it didn't solve the situation but i wanted to at least be a little more real about it

hope you find a method that works for you

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I just always suffer so much from being trapped in this dreadful, torturous existence, it truly is the most horrific anti-suicide world where there isn't the option to just cease existing painlessly and never suffer again.

I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have that option with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's all so terrible, it's just horrifying to me how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture, the fact that humans have to suffer like that is criminal to me, I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.