Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, torturous existence, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I see nothing desirable about prolonging the suffering of existing and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long already.

All I want is to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, I really do find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this deeply undesirable torturous existence just to die in agony from old age, all I want is to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes suffering and harm.
It truly does just cause suffering and harm and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again.

I just wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence I only ever saw as a mistake that just caused me to suffer and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, existence to me really is an abomination and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, I'll always see it as so harmful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering endlessly, as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It really will always be only suffering to me and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so terrible and dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is for all to be gone for me in non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering, for me only dreamless eternal sleep could ever be desirable and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable, torturous existence where I suffer so much just waiting to die anyway and there's just so much suffering in this existence, I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so dreadful.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this existence as only suffering, all I want is to be free from it all.

I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently unconscious where I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer again and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence that to me is just always so dreadful, as long as I exist I'll just always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's desirable for me.
It really is all that's desirable for me and is all I'll hope for in this existence where there's all this futile suffering.

All I hope and wish for is to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful, cruel and terrible and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to cease existing, all I see as desirable is true permanent peace and I see nothing desirable about being enslaved in this futile, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never exist again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and there's so much suffering in this cruel existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will just always see it as an abomination to exist and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile, torturous and dreadful existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never exist again, I just wish for true permanent peace from the abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

It's all so cruel and torturous and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never wake again with this dreadful, futile existence finally no longer my problem, I just hope and wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in an dreamless eternal sleep. I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'd just never wish for the cruel and painful abomination of existence rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence.

 

[developic]

To exist is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will just always see it as an abomination to exist and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile, torturous and dreadful existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never exist again, I just wish for true permanent peace from the abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

It's all so cruel and torturous and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never wake again with this dreadful, futile existence finally no longer my problem, I just hope and wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in an dreamless eternal sleep. I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'd just never wish for the cruel and painful abomination of existence rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence.

Life is like a plant when a flower is hurt, it doesn't bloom overnight. It heals slowly, gathering strength, until one day it blossoms brighter than before.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just always see existing as waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as waiting to die and I always suffer so much from waiting for death in this futile, deeply undesirable torturous existence, all I want is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer ever again, existing to me is just so futile and I could never see any point to any of this, it's all just unnecessary suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity, all I hope for is to never suffer again, I just wish to be free from this existence that to me is just waiting to die but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is positive to me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

All I want is to be free from it all, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in existing, no matter what I'll only hope and wish for non-existence, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and as long as I exist I'll just wish for non-existence.

I just want non-existence to bring me the peace I search for and I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious with this existence no longer my problem, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to never suffer again and to me existing will always be only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want all to finally be gone, only non-existence could ever be positive for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always so torturous.
I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this existence rather all I want is to permanently cease existing.

I just wish for non-existence to finally bring me the relief I search for from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone.

I just wish to be free from it all, I just wish to never exist again with this cruel, futile existence finally all forgotten, I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish to permanently cease existing, for me existence itself will just always be the true problem and I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for eternal sleep.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is eternal sleep, I just hope and wish to never suffer again with this torturous and futile existence all gone and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel and terrible.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, torturous existence that to me is just only suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, all I want is to be gone from it all, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where finally all is forgotten and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be gone for me.
I really do just want all to be gone for me, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence I never would had chosen, for me non-existence is just the only peace and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing.

I just want to be free from it all, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable and is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, cruel and futile existence I just never would had chosen, all I want is to be gone, I just hope for no more suffering, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, I just wish for some peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and for me peace could only lie in non-existence.

I just want to never exist ever again and it just feels like I've suffered for so long, as long as I exist I'll just hope to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

I just wish for peace from all the suffering, I just want to be permanently free from this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel to me, for me non-existence is just the only relief, all I hope for is to be unconscious for all eternity, only the peace of non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I just want peace from all suffering and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.
It truly is the most terrible tragedy to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to never wake ever again.

I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this futile, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake, all I want is to be gone, I wish and hope for no more pain and no more suffering, all that this existence does is just cause suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again with this deeply undesirable, futile existence finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's just so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake, I just wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never seeing any point to any of this.
No matter what I could just never see any point to any of this and I'd just never wish for this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, I just want to never exist again with this cruel, futile and unnecessary existence all gone and forgotten.

To me existing will always be only suffering, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I'd just never wish for this futile existence where I suffer all for the sake of it just hoping and wishing to be gone, for me non-existence is just the only peace, it's all I see as desirable in this futile, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone from it all. I just want to never wake again but of course I continue to suffer and I'll always see existing as just being only suffering, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is true permanent peace, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I hope for.
It truly is all I could ever hope and wish for, I'd just never wish for this cruel, futile and torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this existence so torturous and dreadful that I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, the peace of non-existence really is just all I see as desirable, all I wish and hope for is to never exist again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, it's all that can bring me peace from the pain, suffering and cruelty of this deeply undesirable torturous existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace in dreamless eternal sleep.
I truly will only be at peace in dreamless eternal sleep and the peace of non-existence is just all I could ever hope and wish for, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, only the peace of non-existence can take away and solve what I see as the true problem and as long as I exist I'll just wish for some peace, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to permanently cease existing. I just wish for peace, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in this futile, torturous existence I never would had chosen, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and is just all that can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

To never suffer again is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and is all I could hope and wish for no matter what, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this deeply undesirable, futile and torturous existence is finally all forgotten.

I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this deeply undesirable existence, it's just all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, I just want some peace from all the suffering and for me the peace of non-existence is just all that's desirable.

I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's one that just causes and brings harm and suffering, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, for me non-existence is just the only relief, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just cease existing peacefully.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just cease existing peacefully to escape from the suffering and cruelty of this dreadful, torturous existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

In this existence so cruel and dreadful where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel only non-existence can bring me peace and is just all I hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again with all finally forgotten for me and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

For me non-existence is just all that's desirable, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone and I suffer so much from how I exist in this world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway, for me non-existence really is just the only relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be free from all suffering.
It really is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer again with this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence finally all gone and forgotten, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the abomination of existence.

All I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel and dreadful to me, I always suffer from being denied a death like falling asleep permanently as all I want is to not exist, I just wish and hope to be free from all the suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so painful and torturous.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is just all that can bring me any peace and relief from the suffering of this dreadful, torturous existence.

All I want is to never suffer again, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as positive.

Only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for. I just want to never exist again, I wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist, I find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer simply from existing.