Venting Friday 13th is indeed an unlucky day

[ImpairedLowlife]

It all started with 3 hours of sleep and a triggering nightmare, which I barely got over.
But that's where fun just starts. During the day my mother made 2 comments on my appearance which lowered my self-esteem even further into hating myself.
That's not even it, now I'm being shitted over by my gf for getting a soda which she never tried and trying it myself.
I've been clean from SH for around two months, but it's time to get back to cutting myself. I wish I just never woke up this morning. I wish I had the courage to end myself already.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

My mother has been the biggest bully and self-esteem annihilator that I've had to deal with so I can commiserate.

Do you think her intent was to hurt your feelings? Not that that really changes much.

What exactly was your girlfriend's issue?

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

Do you think her intent was to hurt your feelings? Not that that really changes much.

No, but that doesn't make it any better.

What exactly was your girlfriend's issue?

The fact that I bought a somewhat rare soda which she never tried and drank it myself

 

[vultureilse]

same dude im having such a shitty day too i tried to ctb but couldnt get the method to work

im awful at comforting people so i wont say much but i just hope you can feel better soon

 

[LaVieEnRose]

No, but that doesn't make it any better.

The fact that I bought a somewhat rare soda which she never tried and drank it myself

Did you promise to give it to her or did she just assume that she should be given priority?

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

Did you promise to give it to her or did she just assume that she should be given priority?

She blamed me for trying it alone rather that together with her. Although she's in the capital city right now and could easily buy it for herself. She has also done the same thing and the argue mostly went into blaming me for everything after I mentioned so

 

[FuneralCry]

I view it as being unlucky just to wake up and still be here, only those who die are the true fortunate ones. It really shouldn't be so difficult for us to finally be free from this hellish world and of course it's awful how other people can potentially make things worse for us and just create more suffering. I also really hate the fact that I'm still here, it certainly can be so dreadful feeling trapped here when you really just wish to be gone.

 

[yyytry]

It all started with 3 hours of sleep and a triggering nightmare, which I barely got over.
But that's where fun just starts. During the day my mother made 2 comments on my appearance which lowered my self-esteem even further into hating myself.
That's not even it, now I'm being shitted over by my gf for getting a soda which she never tried and trying it myself.
I've been clean from SH for around two months, but it's time to get back to cutting myself. I wish I just never woke up this morning. I wish I had the courage to end myself already.

I had a triggering nightmare yesterday and it sucked having that feeling hang over my day.
It's like a dream funk.

Sorry your mom attacked your appearance.